Extremely triggering for HOCD - just a warning The scariest thing someone had ever said to me is that gay people can have HOCD and fear being gay.

Hope the last part wasn't triggering

@thebeginning I guess it’s scary to think maybe we’re just clinging to that hope too

@wellwellwell I wondered that, too and saw a comment on an hocd video that says the same thing which scared me but yeah that's terrifying to think about

I feel like that's me..like km clinging on to the hope that it's just hocd...

@a01 I feel like I am too. Like I'm forcing myself to get triggered at some things. Ocd is a convincing bastard lmao

Shit that’s so scary

They probably self diagnosed or therapist wasn't an ocd specialist. A therapist can't handle ocd. They need to be specifically trained (Maybe In just making myself feel better here 😅)

So what if you relate to many factors of hocd you can still end up being gay..?

@a01 Apparently 😥

@wellwellwell Sorry for the triggers guys. I don’t know and I suspect that a professional wouldn’t really tell us anyways. That would be reassurance. I have an OCD diagnosis, but it feels real as hell. Feels like that is what I want sometimes but something is holding me back. It doesn’t feel right and gives me distress, even though most of the anxiety is gone. I will say though that OCD can feel 100% real lol. I have had a couple of themes, including somatosensory OCD. I’ve had nights where it genuinely felt like I was going to pee my pants for several hours with me going to the bathroom constantly, but nothing happening. Hope that offers some consolation.

@nGfloat I'm not diagnosed with ocd but I'm also in my late 20s and never questioned my sexuality especially to the point where it's on my mind 24/7 stressing me out. So am I having a self awakening or is it hocd ugh

@a01 I never questioned but I’m scared I have reason to. I’ve had a lot of themes, suicidal ocd/pregnancy/cheating

@a01 Hey a01. I am 21, so not too far off. Hit me first at 15. I have had other themes as well and definitely have OCD, though I doubt this shit sometimes. I never questioned up until then either. It was in remission for 6 years. I am in a relationship of over 2 years with my beautiful girlfriend, but this shit messes with me so much. I had a dream this morning and when I woke up, it felt like that is what I wanted.

@nGfloat Hey I'm 21 too! Mine started at 14 and I'm constantly doubting if it's ocd. I never questioned either but I was so young. Plus I've never dated even if I only developed crushes on boys even with hocd. I think I also may have a little bit of health ocd revolving around cancer mostly but I'm not sure and it makes me doubt.

@thebeginning mine started at 12 and i did question before....i’m definitely the exception. i’m the one in denial.

@thebeginning I would say the vast majority (if not all of us) here have OCD. Statistically speaking, there are probably a couple that don’t, but those are outliers. I don’t doubt that any of the people with soocd here that I’ve spoken to have it. Unfortunately, I only doubt myself, but it feels so real. I am on an MD/PHD track and am somewhat familiar with neuroscience, so the pathology of OCD makes sense to me and none of your stories bring up red flags. When you are dealing with it yourself though, it is completely different