Why does it feel so real rn? Its feels like im a lesbian and i’ve accepted it Like i keep getting constant intrusive images of kissing my friends, my mind keeps saying “what if you were in a threesome with so & so?”, or asking if i’d date my best friends and yeah:( It feels like i like it but i also don’t It feels fake but also so real I don’t want this at all, i really don’t

Me too....as a kid i literally thought of girls as sisters and had crushes in boys, told a boy i was gonna marry him on monday. However ive been struggling with hocd since i was 12 sadly so:(

@hate_ocd.123 i’ve had it since 12 too. i even questioned it before. i feel like i know i’m in denial, like i’m the one exception.

@missbluesky Nah, questioning is natural.

@missbluesky I never questioned it before, i never even thought about it. I only thought about having crushes on boys, never saw girls that way. Even when i was 11 my mom asked me if i liked girls and i was like “no i dont” and didnt think about it again. And when i was twelve, i remember telling my grandpa that i was starting to get an interest in boys

@nGfloat And yes, questioning is very natural. Everyone i know has had similar thoughts, just haven’t obsessed as much as someone wifh hocd.

@hate_ocd.123 Yeah, always thought of guys as brothers which makes things even tougher. I am not afraid to say I have loved male family members and friends like brothers, but the OCD uses those platonic feelings against me. I am really close with my dad too, so the OCD hits really hard with paternal looking people (and feminine guys).

@nGfloat Yeah i feel, that’s me with really gorgeous women, masculine girls and my best friends. I’m also more attracted to guys personalities much more than their looks, as I’ve only fallen in love with one guy and i still love him until this day. Before that i had crushes and even now i find some guys incredibly hot but idk im just scared:( And same im fine with saying ive loved girls as my best friends and sisters but i just don’t wanna be with a girl like that And my body has never responded like that to a girl only ever a guy, even if i didnt want it to so yeah idk :(

@hate_ocd.123 So you've never had a groinal response?

@missbluesky I mean i’ve had tingles and it felt like it, but like true attraction like getting wet by a girls touch how i do with a guys. That’s never happened with a girl

@hate_ocd.123 same

@hate_ocd.123 Yeah, same with me. I tend to care more about personality, though that has f’ed with me because I tend to find it easier to talk to my guy friends, but I am romantically attracted to women’s personalities. OCD just messes things up sometimes. In response to missbluesky, I have groinal responses but I have stopped caring about them as much. I have never gotten erect or anything to a guy being near me, whereas being even close to my girlfriend gets me all sparked up. My head tells me it would be the same for a dude even though it never was in the past and I have wrestled around with my bro’s and such as guys tend to do. It just feels so real sometimes now :(.

Do you feel this way as well? W/ your themes and such?

@hate_ocd.123 Yes, just have to keep fighting. We know who we want to be in our hearts and souls. Can't let your mind control you.