I think I may be developing a crush on my friend who isnt a guy, and I'm a straight girl, and I'm not alarmed by it? This friend is really nice, kind, good with words, funny, a great friend. I'm not panicking over it so I'm afraid I'm in denial, im actually really calm with the fact I may be attracted to them. Is this recovery or me being gay?

@lypc 🌼 I'm so sorry, if it helps, you know who you are, and when you get OCD you get uncomfortable with your thoughts, like you may have just did, (and I'm so sorry for being the cause :()

@lypc 🌼 I don't know if this will help, but it always cheers me up a bit https://youtu.be/thOcsZaOEUw I just wanna say again I'm so sorry☹

@Jo I don’t think you’ve got to apologize for unintentionally triggering someone. Being triggered is something we have to learn to handle effectively as part of living with the disorder. It’s great you’re conscious of other people’s emotional experience, and it isn’t like you set out with that intention, so you don’t have to feel responsible for it.

@lypc 🌼 I remember a few months back when I was struggling really bad with soocd and I couldnt sleep from my anxiety. To sleep I would watch this music channel, this is my favorite video, I hope it helps :) https://youtu.be/ne0_HovcIjc

@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett That's true, but for me I dont wanna leave someone with nothing once they're triggered, but I agree with you. I'm just apologizing to make sure this person is okay. :)

@lypc 🌼 No don't apologize for your comment it's good! Honesty is the best! I'm glad I gave you an exposure but I'm so sorry for causing a trigger as well! I hope you enjoy the link, and maybe after you wake up from a bad dream you can use these videos. :)

Yes, for months.

I feel like I may be falling for them but I only like the more masculine features they have

other than that I dont find them attractive much

I truly never knew that, I thought that soocd came without compulsions. no wonder I'm still struggling :/

@Jo Ruminating, checking, comparing, analyzing and asking for reassurance (“Is this OCD?”) are all compulsions.

@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett Wow I never knew that, I do it all the time😞 thank you!

@Jo I recommend reading any of the following books: https://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Unwanted-Intrusive-Thoughts-Frightening/dp/1626254346 https://www.amazon.com/Freedom-Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-Personalized/dp/042527389X https://www.amazon.com/Needing-Know-Sure-Overcoming-Reassurance-ebook/dp/B07MMQ7HRK

@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett Thank you! Will definitely check these out :)