Ihateocd83
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nGfloatnGfloat
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It can be anything really. Thoughts that you are attracted to some dude you see on TV or in person etc... images of naked dudes and sexual acts. What do you want to know?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah i pretty much have all that. But i have these thoughts 24/7 and i feel like i need to come out. This doesnt feel like ocd 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 Me too. Don’t worry. I get little reprieves when I distract myself by doing work or spend time with my gf sometimes. All in all though, it is really tough. I have been struggling with this overwhelming feeling that I am aroused by the thoughts in my chest and the groinal responses. I end up checking to the most graphic sexual shit and sometimes it just confuses me more and my head tells me I would like it but I feel horrible afterwards. Tells me I am attracted and need to check by getting off. Do you get that?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat when did you get diagnosed ?
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 A couple of months ago
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat Do you say shit in your head aswel ?
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 Sometimes. It is usually forced, like if I am checking to see if it is arousing. Sometimes weird shit will pop into my head though and I will be like, why did I say that?!? It’s more just images though.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I try and avoid porn. But my mind trys to convince i would like gay porn
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I need help. I dont want to be here anymore
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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So this morning i dreamed of my ex which is fine because i still have feelings for her. But before that i got an image of me holding one of my work mates hands wtf ?. And then i got out of bed and said im gay 😥
nGfloatnGfloat
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You are psyching yourself out dude. I had intrusive images of dudes this morning telling me I liked their butts lol (I cringe and it makes me very uncomfortable). Just keep on going and learn to disregard literally whatever pops up. Don’t avoid it. Just learn to let it become background noise.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Thanks mate. Im really depressed aswel. When i say things in my head i get a feeling in my stomach aswel 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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Me too man. Just push through. You’ve got this. Again, if it is any consolation, you’ve got at least 10 other people going through the same shit as you. We are all in this.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Hello mate you there ?
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 Yeah, I’m here.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat My post below mate. If you dont mind 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Cheers buddy i appreciate your help 👍. I seem to have men on my mind constantly it cant be normal
nGfloatnGfloat
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Me too man. Freaks me out. Makes me think that is what I want. Keeps on telling me I like men’s parts better than women’s. It feels horrible, and too real.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat Mate i know this morning its all started again like me wanting to be with a man and im thinking of certain guys and it feels like i have feeling behind it ive got tingling in my hands and a feeling in my stomach 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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Gotta stop checking. Just let the thoughts be there. I get that too. Strange tingling in the stomach, crazy feeling, specific people etc etc... you’ve got this. You need to stop checking though. No mental ruminating about whether you like it or not, or bringing men into your head and whatnot. Don’t follow the intrusive thoughts.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Cant stop thinking im in denial. Do you get the feeling you want to be with a man and then you analyze it?. Sorry mate i know im going on but im terrified to be honest i dont want this life and i feel like im being forced into it 😥
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I dont know who i am anymore 😞.
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 Yeah man, definitely getting that feeling. Struggling the most right now with intrusive thoughts of penises. You just need to float through. Don’t analyze.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat When was you diagnosed mate ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I feel like im in denial. I even said this is not fair on my gf and 2 boys. I cant be the dad i want to be with this going on
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Im scared that im gay and i just cant take it. Ive been crying most if the morning 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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Sorry to hear that man. Just keep on pushing. You are okay. I had a rough morning myself. Had a hard time stopping the compulsions.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I feel like im getting worse. These thoughts and feelings making me think i want to be with a man 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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Me too man me too. Just don’t ruminate. Acknowledge they feel that way and move on.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I cant live like this. I feel like im lieing to myself 😥
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