When you wake up do you really feel like you don’t love your partner anymore....every day it like that..

Happens to me sometimes. It’s the worst feeling. I just want to be happy with him! OCD sucks. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this.

It’s more like for me “i know” I’m convinced that my rocd convinced me out of it :/ after a certain situation that i would be okay single and i became happy with being single and thinking about being single, then it turned into dating other people. Idk i get so annoyed trying to fight it.

I still stay even though i know i want too and I’m just anxious about leaving i keep saying either way with the holidays not the right time anyway. See how you feel after. I notice it’s worse when near my period but after my period it’s like i don’t worry about leaving as much even though i know i want too. I’ve become so depressed that i don’t even go to see my mom, call my family, etc. it’s terrible then i feel guilty about that on top of that

That’s wonderful 😊 I know I’m not 100% either but I am trying my hardest to be loving. But try to relax and enjoy your evening

Idk why i still stay.. there’s gotta be something there that i can’t figure out. I get so Sad thinking about the past all of our good memories. Everything reminds me of how i wanna leave. Every time i get really sad about wanting to leave i run to him and just cry but it’s almost like I’m just doing this for my sake and not his. But there was a time when i went to take a shower, i came back, he was no where to be found. It took me like an hour to realize he went out but his gun wasn’t on the night stand and then i jumped straight out of bed and went looking for him and asked his mom when he was. And i got so scared. So i know i still care even though my thoughts tell me o

No*

It’s like with me i know i want to leave that’s what my gut tells me but i stay anyway, why I’m depressed. I don’t get it because i have everything I’ve wanted and now i don’t want it. I have thoughts everyday to stay, or you should stay if you leave you won’t have this, and then other thoughts like ehh it’s okay you know you don’t want him. Idk why i stay and continue to be depressed. All i know is the week of thanksgiving i was good, for like four days. I usually ask him how do i look like. 1-10? 10 being the best, and 6/7 being good. I didn’t ask for 3 days and then i had therapy and it brought up the reality of me not wanting him anymore. But every time i get the feeling that i know i want to leave i run to him and cry and go for his hugs. Then my mind says why you doing this, you know you don’t want him. Like right now I’m about to go downstairs and see him but i also say no don’t your confusing yourself. Idk. It’s just weird. Idk how to get this back because when all i want to do is leave. I know it has something to do with period week. It’s much easier to fight that i want to leave, but the week before my period i have to fight extra hard to stay. I’ve had ocd in my first relationship and its nothing like this that’s why i know it’s not ocd :( meds helped my ocd as a teenager big time and I’ve been on meds all over and nothing is working :/

😩 i can’t even say i love you anymore, i tend to be happy without him but I’d rather be depressed with him even though when I’m with him I’m like i need to leave but when I’m alone I’m like I’ll be fine but i refuse and i just go be with him. It’s like i go out for rides with him every night, buy shit, get food, just drive around all night until i can relax enough to go to sleep next to him but in the morning it’s the same shit

And plus it’s the holidays i definitely don’t wanna leave then. Christmas triggers me cuz i want a Christmas and be happy :(

He was supposed to propose to me in January and when i left in August and came back.. the thought of getting married sounds wonderful but not with him. I can’t even see a future but at one point i did that’s why i stay because at one point i wanted him, i know he made me feel good and happy

I wish we could pm on here :/

I have a med appointment at 10:15 😩 gonna try to get on meds again for the 4th time