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Sometimes, yeah. What scares me the most is that even as an adult I seem to gravitate towards female celebrities/ characters, even if I couldn't care less about their looks. Yeah if they were pretty I could acknowledge that, but I just liked their voices or thought they played cool characters. I've only ever had crushes on boys but I wasn't drooling over every hot male artist. I could acknowledge their good looks like Shawn Mendes, Captain Hook from once upon a time but I wasn't exactly drooling over them. The fact that even before hocd hit I wasn't boy crazy. I know ocd is the doubting disease but this doesn't feel like ocd ugh
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Okay first hook! That man is beautiful. But I also have discovered a lot of times female character we gravitate towards are woman that I want to be like... not with
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@Madeline Ikr?? He is! and yeah I've heard that but for me I tend to gravitate towards villains so I just liked them cause they're usually sassy. As for the singers I liked the songs they sing/ their voices and wished I could sing like them but ocd makes me feel like it was because I was attracted to them and I'm not sure :(
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@thebeginning I know it’s so scary. I’m struggling a lot right now too. I can’t just stil with the thought because I end up having horrible fear and panic
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@Madeline I'm sorry you're going through that :/ But I feel ya. This week ocd has been trying to convince me that I'm just gonna have to accept I'm bi/gay at some point, to stop resisting. That if I just let myself I’ll like it. *Sigh*
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@thebeginning Me too. But in this reality I always have to be with girls no matter what
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@Madeline What do you mean?
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@thebeginning Like in my fears even if I’m only bi it says “Well you still can’t be with boys” and I like boys so much and always looked forward to marrying a man
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@Madeline Oh felt that too! I've ha drinks on and off for years and when I come to the conclusion that I'm bi and I'll just date guys ocd's like "Hahahha bet"
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@thebeginning Yes I always say “Well even if I’m bi I’m only going to be with guys and never do anything with girls” and then ocd says “No. only girls”
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@Madeline Yeah it's so annoying and scary!
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@thebeginning Exactly and I just want to scream that I want to be straight at the top of my lungs, but that would do nothing
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@Madeline Hahah felt that too. Plus it would still feel like lying 😂
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@thebeginning I know. I wish there some pill to just make this go away and then be like bahm straightness
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@Madeline Oh if only hahaha
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Exactly. Like when I watch a movie that has a nudity scene with a girl I actually cover the screen or look away because I don’t want to see it. But hocd is a bitch man
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@lypc Yet we still think we’re attracted to women?? Ocd is crazy
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@lypc I know I’m so tired all the time now from this. I just wish there was a way we could just go “I want to be straight!” And poof it happens
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@lypc Ummm.... not usually. But I can see how that is a checking symptom!
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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