I cant lead a normal life with this going on. I just feel like im walking around on auto pilot 😞

I feel like im in denial and attracted to men epecially feminine looking guys. I really dont know whats happened to me 😞

My life feels ruined

@Ihateocd83 I am so sorry you feel that way! No matter if life feels like it’s ruined at this point in time, it can get so much better! Life is precious! No one is ever one emotion forever, things change. Chrissie Hodges has some great videos about OCD on YouTube if you’re interested. Educating myself on OCD has really helped me personally. My therepist taught me something called the 15 minute game (you wait for 15 minutes before worrying and taking an action, then when the time is up you start again). I hope this is helpful. Be safe, you deserve to get better! 💕

@BeachedMermaid Can this be hocd tho ?. My feelings are telling me i want to be with a man. But i dont 😞

@Ihateocd83 I mean you are saying these thoughts are very distressing to you, so sounds like HOCD.

My HOCD is much better than it used to be, so I have hope that it can get easier for you as well. You should work on being kind to yourself. 😊

@BeachedMermaid Thankyou i hope i can get better im starting to doubt myself this is ver distressing. I just seem to have men on my mind all day/night. I cant even think about women anymore 😥

@Ihateocd83 Well I believe in you! Best of luck. 😊🍀

@BeachedMermaid Is this the norm for hocd ?

@Ihateocd83 Doubting and obsessing is pretty much the norm for HOCD, but it varies from person to person.

@BeachedMermaid I feel like im losing this battle and i have just let this take over 😥

@Ihateocd83 You don’t have to lose the battle. There is help out there. I’m in a really bad place too, but I know that there is help, and I am latching into that hope. I really recommend getting treatment of some kind.

@BeachedMermaid I dont know what else to do ?😥

@Ihateocd83 You should see a therepist for sure. And if you need someone to talk to you can text this crisis line https://www.crisistextline.org/text-us/ There is hope, I just know that God has wonderful things ahead for all of us on NOCD. Be kind to yourself. 💕 And try to stop ruminating, it just makes it worse in the long run.

@BeachedMermaid I used this crisis text helpline and i think they just thought i was gay to be honest. They sent me a load of links. And its made me very anxious 😞

@Ihateocd83 I’m sorry they weren’t helpful. I thought they may help. There isn’t much information around HOCD, so that may be why.

@BeachedMermaid Not your fault. i thought it was a ocd helpline but it was the crisis helpline

You said you were worried about being attracted to the opposite sex, so I’m assuming that’s what you are most fixated on. But these worries do fade overtime, they have for me at least, even though they are still there, there’s hope that it will get better.

@BeachedMermaid I hope so. Im so done with this i swear i just feel gay now and it depresses me that iust want to chase women around 😞

@Ihateocd83 You really should see a therepist who specializes in OCD, specifically HOCD. You can get online therepy on this app.

Oh, idk if it’s available everywhere. But there is this online support group that I’ve heard is really good, and it’s in the uk. Here’s the link. https://ocdaction.org.uk/i-need-support/ocd-action-skype-phone-zoom-support-groups/ Best of luck. 👋