Why has my mind done this to me ?

Cheers mate my mind is telling me i want to be with a man. But i dont it feels so real i want my life back

You there buddy

@Ihateocd83 You'll get your life back eventually. You need to change some type of behavior though, or how you look at the OCD. A new strategy. Because doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results is madness. That was a Einstein quote and seems very applyable to things like this.

@Fury I just dont know whats reality anymore. I never had 1 gay thought before the age of 22

@Ihateocd83 You obviously don't like it, it's distressing. Have you had any OCD behavior before this? It doesn't change the fact you have it now though. Or was this a behavior that somehow developed when you were older?

I'm sorry you have suffered almost as long as I've been alive. I wouldn't be able to do it, you are definitely stronger than I. We spoke once before and you said you are on meds, have you considered another kind? Or gotten another therepist?

@Fury I also struggle with HOCD. I've only had it for 5 months now, it's not fun. Luckily I found out it was OCD early on. After I found out weird behaviors from my childhood made perfect sense. Nothing in relation to this but other obsessions, like me going to hell or random shit. I know I'll have a wife someday and I know my OCD will be overcomed. I hope your call goes well

@Fury Could i ask what kind of thoughts you get mate ?

@Ihateocd83 They vary on the situation. Where I am what I see. They vary from literally calling me gay or saying something disgusting. I hate it. I've also had a little POCD on the side. POCD actually morphed into this it seems. Before the POCD harm OCD. It's just bullshit. I started to get groinal responses about this shit halfway through. I haven't been getting erections so that's a good sign. Everybody's OCD groinal response is different though so if it doesn't sound like yours relax.

@Fury I still get aroused by women but it's like it's slower than before.

@Fury I get mine in my butt 🙈😞

@Ihateocd83 The groinal responses?

@Fury Yes mate

@Ihateocd83 I used to. It seemed to be some kind of hypersensitivity I somehow got over it.

@Fury Yeah ive always had this symptom tho on and off since i was 22 it was one of my first symptoms

@Ihateocd83 I developed it about the second month of this. I've never heard of anyone saying anything similar to it. I stopped giving a shit at some point and it stopped.