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I have my own intrusive thoughts that haunt me all day everyday so I understand. You are not your thoughts and your thoughts aren't facts. It's ok for the thoughts to just be there.
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You are not a monster
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You’re not a monster. I feel the exact same way and my therapist has said consistently it’s POCD. Trying to be patient and brace for ERP which is apparently the best treatment for these thoughts. They keep running around in my mind too and I try and redirect my thoughts but it’s almost every minute. You’re not alone
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Intrusive thoughts are the inverse of things you value; therefore, if the thought is disturbing you, you should know you value the opposite greatly. The thoughts are a hyper reactive danger warning⚠️- do not delve into the thought content, just know your amygdala was triggered. Repeatedly checking to see if you are disturbed by the thoughts is a compulsion. Try to be an observer of the thoughts- “oh my brain is sending me error messages again, better not read into them”
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None of us are monsters, it’s the brain playing tricks on us, you need to accept the thought but don’t engage with it as it will make it worse. In time it will get better mine has. I have the odd thing wen I see or hear something but 70 per cent of the time I’m fine and live a normal life. When it first happened it was horrendous and 24-7 so I know it does get better ! Stay strong use breathing techniques, your not alone ?
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I also wanted to add that I’ve been desensitized to pedophilia for so long due to people constantly misusing or misconstruing the word (like I don’t feel any empathy when I hear stories about pedophilia; I just know it’s bad). Does this mean I’m a monster and that I can potentially become a pedophile in the future if I haven’t already?
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Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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TW Just saw a judge video where a girl was complaining about a mom suing her for money when her mom is her agent and gives her younger sister (at 17 years old) better work because they exploit her body and THEY SHOWED PICTURES. I saw it and was like “oh my gosh is that actually what I think it is?” Then after realizing it’s like I was too shocked to look away. What is bothersome is that I wasn’t immediately repulsed enough to turn it off and didn’t immediately do so and when the picture kept showing up it’s like I kept looking at it to make sure what I saw was actually what I saw. Also, the false memory is hitting hard because now I’m wondering if I had intrusive thoughts judging her body. Now I feel like a perv and pedo 😭 It’s like I’m anxious over not being anxious enough about the situation while actually being incredibly anxious. I don’t if that made ANY sense but someone please help. I will say my mind was already incredibly vulnerable because of burnout and other very stressful events recently. Still, I feel terrible and feel I deserve to be in jail.
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