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I have my own intrusive thoughts that haunt me all day everyday so I understand. You are not your thoughts and your thoughts aren't facts. It's ok for the thoughts to just be there.
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You are not a monster
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You’re not a monster. I feel the exact same way and my therapist has said consistently it’s POCD. Trying to be patient and brace for ERP which is apparently the best treatment for these thoughts. They keep running around in my mind too and I try and redirect my thoughts but it’s almost every minute. You’re not alone
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Intrusive thoughts are the inverse of things you value; therefore, if the thought is disturbing you, you should know you value the opposite greatly. The thoughts are a hyper reactive danger warning⚠️- do not delve into the thought content, just know your amygdala was triggered. Repeatedly checking to see if you are disturbed by the thoughts is a compulsion. Try to be an observer of the thoughts- “oh my brain is sending me error messages again, better not read into them”
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None of us are monsters, it’s the brain playing tricks on us, you need to accept the thought but don’t engage with it as it will make it worse. In time it will get better mine has. I have the odd thing wen I see or hear something but 70 per cent of the time I’m fine and live a normal life. When it first happened it was horrendous and 24-7 so I know it does get better ! Stay strong use breathing techniques, your not alone ?
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I also wanted to add that I’ve been desensitized to pedophilia for so long due to people constantly misusing or misconstruing the word (like I don’t feel any empathy when I hear stories about pedophilia; I just know it’s bad). Does this mean I’m a monster and that I can potentially become a pedophile in the future if I haven’t already?
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- 23w
I fear I may have POCD, I am terrified of being a pedophile. my symptoms were initially strong surges of anxiety. I made the mistake of looking up what pedophilia is about and now I fear I am one. I have a bad masturbation problem and that didnt help, as now I feel a weird feeling down below and its distressing me. I'm only 20, this never happened to me before and now I only feel confusion and doubt, Ive cried like never before cause of this.
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I have been suffering this for about 3 weeks now and its absolutely unbearable, I want to state more explicit details about this but I dont want to distress others, all I can say is I am experiencing this weird feeling in my groin and an urge to masturbate and its horrifying me. I already am diagnosed with anxiety but it pales in comparison with what is happening with me. I had no interest in children at all before this but now I am experiencing doubt and uncertainty. I have already cried 5 times today, this is the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I am only 20 years old and its both physically, and emotionally destroying me
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- 17w
Ive dealt with pocd for a very long time now and it gets more real as time goes on. I was watching a movie and I’ve read the books so I knew there was a kiss scene coming up.The actors and their characters are children but I was basically looking forward to the scene. Then as they were kissing, it looked kind of weird and mechanical because again the actor was technically still a child. And I let myself indulge and enjoy it, of how someone young was doing something sexual and adult like. Idk I feel like a fuckikg creep but I don’t WANT this. There was nothing intrusive about this, it’s just something creepy that I’ve done. I keep ruminating about it but still. I don’t identify myself by this mistake but it still sucks. My mind then went to children that I know, one girl and one boy, and them separately doing sexual things for the first time and navigating that and it feels like I like it but I don’t. It’s not as real as the movie scene because the fact I enjoyed the scene WAS real but it’s still stressing me out.
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