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I did the same thing before I found out sexual orientation ocd was a thing. I came out as bi to my mum and my boyfriend a month ago and they didnāt understand where it was coming from, Iāve never seen them so shocked. I explained that it came out of no where and I wasnāt even attracted to any women or could even have a sexual or romantic relationship with them. I felt a relief for about an hour after telling them and then my mind just spiralled again. I donāt think I actually am bi. Iāve always been a straight woman. Iāve been able to kiss my friends that are women when Iām drunk but I could never do anything more than that. I read before that we need 100% reassurance of our sexuality but no one is 100% straight anyway. Their will always be someone that will question our sexuality weāve just got to learn to cope with our intrusive thoughts and the uncertainty that is our sexuality. Do you also experience relationship ocd? I experience both and I hate it.
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No i dont think i suffer with that. It feels like i find men attractive tho. Or is it all in my head i dont know š
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I cant imagine doing anything with a bloke. But then my mind tells me thats what i want and i like penises ?. It disgusts me even writeing that
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I couldnāt imagine doing anything with the same sex either. Itās crazy that our minds are making us doubt our sexuality. My mind seems to spiral about sexuality and then it focuses on my feelings for my boyfriend and if theyāre actually real. Iām sick of my mind needing 100% reassurance on everything, it sucks.
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Have you felt like this for a while or only recently? Mine only started in lockdown as Iām not working.
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Ive had this going on since i was 22. Im 37 now but things are a lot worse at the moment
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Oh wow. Thatās a long time to be dealing with this. Iām sorry itās been that long. Are you in lockdown?
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Yes are you ?
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Yeah I think thatās what caused mine. I was fine before lockdown and then all of a sudden I was getting intrusive thoughts I couldnāt get rid of. I canāt wait for this all to be over. 2020 has just been the worst year.
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@elisha124 Yeah this has literally been the worst year of my life. I feel like my ocd says to me ive always liked men even when i was at school. Which is a load of bollocks because this started at 22 š¤·āāļø
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I feel you man
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Going through the same thing right now, youāre not alone. My OCD came out of nowhere in 2019 when we had just moved and it was hard to find a job so I spent most of my time at home alone while my husband worked. The all of a sudden, one day the āwhat if Iām a lesbian or biā thought popped into my head and itās been astuck ever since. I feel like I was kind of in my own little quarantine due to life circumstances and it definitely contributed to this. Sitting at home alone with our thoughts would probably make anyone go crazy. Iām doing ERP through NOCD right now and Iām currently in a rough patch. But my therapist is so amazing and supportive and Iām definitely not going to give up.
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I feel like giving up. Its like i find guys attractive now but im not sure if its reality. When i think about sex with a man or kissing them it makes me feel uncomfortable
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@Bryan Yes mate. Do have the same problem ?
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Hello, im a 21ye old male. All of my life i was always atrscted to girls, even if it was only a hug by a girl i liked i got a boner. I always fantasised about doing fun stuff (not onyl sex) with my gf. Had a gf for almost two years. Two months ago i fell into severe anxiety about my sexuality changing. It happened to me 2 years ago bit then i had my gf and i did not need to worry if i will find a girl i love or will i be able to because i already had her. The toughts were realy intense but they faded and for 2 years i did not experience any doubts or fears about it. Then it happened again in december. For 2-3 weeks i was realy down...constant toughts about doing things with men i never wanted to do, fear that i liked someone, fear of denial...but them bc of getting back with my girlfriend it was okay for three weeks almosf. Then we broke up again and after a few days i had the worst days of my life. I felt like i actually changed, i did not know what to do. Then after a week I went out with a girl and when she laid on me when we wafched a show I got aroused like i always did with my ex. I felt such relief and i could handle my fears and anxiety for almost a month. Then a week ago the fear returned and i am again in a very bad spot, i dont know what else to do, i have no girl that i love, i am afraid i will never be able to experience those same feelings and moment that i had with my ex and then again the toughts of being in denial came back. I dont know what to do. My psychiatrist said i dont have ocd but onyl simptoms and that my anxiety is the proboem. Any one experienced something similar? Thanks
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I started having intrusive thoughts about my sexuality when I got into a relationship with my ex and I wondered if it would seemingly go away but it hasnāt and I find myself ruminating about it constantly especially before or during my period. Has anyone else felt with this?
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Hi everyone, Iāve been really anxious lately, and I just need to get this out of my head. Someone recently told me that maybe Iām bisexual ā that I might be more sexually attracted to women, but more romantically attracted to men. That bisexuality is not 50/50. And ever since I heard that, Iāve been spiraling. The thing is: I donāt want this to be true. It scares me. I donāt feel romantic attraction to women, Iāve never wanted to be in a relationship with one. But yes, I get aroused by fantasies involving women ā and that makes me feel broken or like Iāve been lying to myself. I love my boyfriend deeply, I donāt want to lose him. I want to feel fully connected to him, physically and emotionally. But now Iām stuck in this obsessive loop of questioning: āWhat if Iām just in denial?ā āWhat if Iām not really straight?ā āWhat if this is why my libido is low?ā Itās exhausting, and I donāt know if this is OCD, anxiety, or if something is fundamentally wrong. Has anyone else felt this split ā romantic feelings for one gender, sexual feelings for another? I feel so alone and scared. Thanks for listening.
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