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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It sounds like ocd is restating a new phrase differently. It all goes back to still answering the question. I'm sorry this is all so hard. I'm struggling right now too. Also it's hard to enjoy sex or feel certain feelings due to the ocd and anxiety. I'm trying to practice this- whatever I feel is ok. Whether I feel nothing or something and whoever I feel it to is fine. Trying to practice not judging and just noticing thoughts and feelings. Easier said then done. There is no way to know what you will feel or if your feelings change. OCD is saying you won't enjoy sex forever and that's not true it doesn't know that.
Thank you for your kind words. I’m trying to feel okay.
@wellwellwell Hopefully we’ll both be okay one day
@wellwellwell Yes I hope so too. I get how you are feeling. It's all hard and confusing.
Im in the same boat right now with my BF. We'll overcome this at some point. *Hugs*
Hugs to you, too. I love my husband and I’m sure you love your BF. We will make it through
Reading this with the comments makes me feel a whole lot better. Thank you I suffer with the same ocd you do and I'm going thro the same thing. I love my gf and when we actually have sex it's great lol but I can't masturbate to women and I'm plauged with intrusive thoughts that somtimes give me pleasure too. I'm sorry you're suffering with me but I'm glad I'm not alone thanks for telling your story
Thank you, too! I would love to have good sex with my husband and I know the first step is recovery. You love your gf and don’t let ocd ruin that. I’m happy you’re feeling better. Don’t let this take happiness away from you
I hate that we have to suffer with sexual orientation OCD. Heck in the way, way past I was aroused by Lesbian porn but it never made me doubt my heterosexuality. But now with this OCD subject and the constant mental rituals ocd tells me that because of what I did in the past it means I’m a lesbian and I just haven’t realized it yet. And during ERP when the behavioral specialist tell me to imagine that the thoughts might be true (that’s what you have to do in ERP) it terrifies me and makes me so so sick. I just don’t want it to be true. I’ve always dreamed of having a husband, even now in moments like these I wish he was here to hold me now and tell me everything will be ok...
I’m genuinely starting to wonder if I have ocd at all . It seems like I have such intense desire for the things I don’t want and no desire for men at all. Men don’t turn me on and I haven’t enjoyed being with them for a very long time. I’m genuinely starting to wonder if this whole time I’ve just been suppressing my genuine sexuality and pretending it’s ocd.
New thought just creeped in: as I used to watch same sex porn, am I afraid of what this means (being gay) or am I just denying that I liked it? It seems like it's the same thing, but what if I, deep down, know I like it and am just denying it? Maybe this isnt even OCD. And my so-ocd latches on to this, to sexual attraction so much, bc it's not something we choose. But I want to be attracted to men. I've always liked men. I don't want to be with a woman. I'm so done with this, it brings me so much suffering. Please be mindful if you respond to this. I'm already feeling so bad..
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