I’m no longer scared of attraction to women. I’m afraid I’m not attracted to men. I’ve never really enjoyed sex due to intrusive thoughts and fear and pressure. All I want is to enjoy it with my husband and ocd has convinced me otherwise. I just want it so badly and to think it’ll never come upsets me so much.

It sounds like ocd is restating a new phrase differently. It all goes back to still answering the question. I'm sorry this is all so hard. I'm struggling right now too. Also it's hard to enjoy sex or feel certain feelings due to the ocd and anxiety. I'm trying to practice this- whatever I feel is ok. Whether I feel nothing or something and whoever I feel it to is fine. Trying to practice not judging and just noticing thoughts and feelings. Easier said then done. There is no way to know what you will feel or if your feelings change. OCD is saying you won't enjoy sex forever and that's not true it doesn't know that.

Im in the same boat right now with my BF. We'll overcome this at some point. *Hugs*

Reading this with the comments makes me feel a whole lot better. Thank you I suffer with the same ocd you do and I'm going thro the same thing. I love my gf and when we actually have sex it's great lol but I can't masturbate to women and I'm plauged with intrusive thoughts that somtimes give me pleasure too. I'm sorry you're suffering with me but I'm glad I'm not alone thanks for telling your story