- Username
- Sarah
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I need a friend for this reason. I have a false memory that I touched a child inappropriately and I am considering suicide because I can't stop feeling guilty and doubtful. I have images in my head and I don't know if they are real
While it’s difficult to have OCD, having it alone is not a good reason for not having children. Irrespective of your theme. No matter how hard we try, avoiding the things that trigger our thoughts doesn’t work. If it did, people with OCD would be cured the moment they weren’t around something that triggered them. The best course of action is active participation in treatment.
It was not my child, it was a friend's little sister. I don't think we were ever alone but I have so many fucking "what if" in my head that I no longer know what happened. I know two things: the child loved me and to this day she still talks amazing about me and I don't remember being afraid of going to jail (being found out).
And I wasn't telling you to turn yourself in I just was telling you to bring her in to get checked if she was your daughter I'm not for telling anybody to turn themselves in especially if they're sorry for what they did but I just believe that it's more important to protect the child. I'm sure you didn't harm that girl. I'm sure that's probably pocd. if I were in your shoes I would probably just avoid being alone with kids all together but that's my pdoc talking and I'm new to this so I'm probably not the best at giving advice right now
Don't worry. I avoid kids at all cost. I want kids of my own but... I can't... It sucks to be restricted from it
I know same here and the worst part is I have a child and I can't even be a mom to him. I physically abused him in the past due to drugs and alcohol which I have gotten clean from but now I'm afraid that I may sexually abuse him and even though I have no desire to the fear of it alone just keeps me from getting custody of him they have tried to give him back to me on multiple times but I have told the case worker I don't know why but I feel like I may sexually abuse him. And she always tells me that I'm sabotaging myself to be a mom. And when I started looking it up I found out what I have is pocd. I'm just so afraid to get him back and then actually hurt him I don't want to and I know it sounds crazy why would you do something that you don't want to do but I just don't want to take a risk but I also don't want to be afraid to be around kids all together but I feel like a bad person. but maybe by the end of this course I will be able to get some help but I feel so gross just for even having the thoughts like I don't even have thoughts of hurting him I just have fears or like a fear of hurting him I don't have thoughts of doing it but I have a fear that I might do it
My ocdstory maybe at the end of this recovery well feel better and maybe we'll actually get to be parents good parents
I just feel like I am high risk to hurt my son because I've already physically abused him before but at the time even though I was abusing drugs and alcohol and I have gotten clean I just feel like I'm still a bad parent
I understand completely... Pocd is hell on earth.
Yes it is
Myocdstory if you ever need a friend I'm here
I don't judge and I know this is hard. Don't take your life. I don't really have a job right now so I'm available most of the time. Feel free I measagee anytime
Thank you. I'd love to chat with someone
I gotcha girl. Here whenever you need to cat
chat
I'd love that
@ayo1 I'm the same thing.... I hate myself
@myocdstory Feel free to reply to me anytime sweetie
@ayo1 Thank you.... I'm so afraid I touched a child inappropriately and I feel like crying. Not only that, I have also another false memory that I masturb-thinking about her. I want to die...
@myocdstory I am worried that I might have had sexual intercourse with a cat at moment
@I don’t like ocd I have a false memory similar às well! But with my pets! :(
@myocdstory Like how do I even know it’s false
@I don’t like ocd My therapist said "if you doubt it and don't actually remember, it's a big help to recognize that it's indeed false" I use other strategies too. For example, I don't remember feeling guilty or even remembering the event later on. I'm a virgin and if I had sexual intercourse, I'd think that I had lost to an animal. (I'm saving for someone special). I'm a girl so I don't even know what to do with a animal. I'd have been crazy worried about whether or not I caught a disease from my pets. I'd have had their hair on my public area. I don't even remember having any sexual intentions of doing nor I have ever fantasized about my pets. Etc
Has anyone with POCD actually had children after suffering with their theme? I want to know if I can ever actually have kids despite having suffered from POCD. I also suffer from HOCD.
Does anyone with POCD have children? I want to have children in the future, but the idea of it really scares me because of my fears. Something I have been learning in therapy is not to make fear-based decisions. So it’s definitely something I want to do, but I just wanna know some of your experiences with this.
i haven’t been diagnosed w/ ocd but my therapist says i have like symptoms of it but i recently just stared dealing w/ Pocd (hell) that my therapist says was triggered from the sound of freedom which absolutely breaks my heart bc i was so excited to support the movie but now i feel like it’s one of my biggest regrets. i feel as if i would’ve never watched the movie i would’ve possibly never started dealing w/ this. But my biggest scare now w/ this is having my own kids . i’m F18 and throughout my whole teenhood my biggest goal and dream was to become a mother a GOOD mother. everything i tried doing was motivated by the thoughts of giving my kids the absolute best one day. Now i feel like it’s my biggest fear w/ dealing w/ this and i don’t know how i’d even explain to someone like my bf for example, of the reason why i don’t want to have kids anymore ( though i still really do but i just literally feel like can’t because of this 💔💔) are there any mothers out there w/ Pocd w/ kids out here? how do you cope w/ this? should i even have kids?? i also feel as if it kinda bad rn. i was doing good for a couple weeks and last night it just rushed back for no reason. i’ve learned what groinal responses are ( it absolutely scared the shit out of me before i found out what it was and i was just not okay and sort still am not when it happens. it just feel too real and i end up sobbing god i hate this ) and i feel as if i’m constantly body checking myself especially when i see a cute baby or children tiktok i love babies n kids id never wanna hurt them in such away i rather pass away. i just can’t believe why this this happening i used to be so much more happier before this and i really don’t know how to deal w/ this and what i should do😖💔💔
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