I have a child and Im seriously thinking about doing an open adoption due to my POCD also have also physically abused my son once in the past Wich is probably why I'm afraid I may sexually abuse him even though I absolutely do not want to nor do I think about him like that. But I feel it's best if I give him up just in case and never have kids. While I continue to stay sober and try to be a better person and continue to be in his life just always with someone else. If anyone else has POCD and does NOT want kids do to this reason but still wants a partner that is of age and still wants to help people and do good for the world but feels like they can never have a family because of pocd I'm here. I'm just looking for a guy who has POCD but actually does NOT want to harm kids and for that reason does not want to have kids. It's a lonly road and I know this isn't a dating site but I feel like in this situation it can help. I don't drink or do drugs I just want to get to know someone and settle down and not have kids. But still help people. I want to be psychologist to help people struggling with ocd and other mental illnesses. I don't want to be alone the rest of my life but I also don't want kids due to POCD. If anyone feels the same feel free to message me.

I need a friend for this reason. I have a false memory that I touched a child inappropriately and I am considering suicide because I can't stop feeling guilty and doubtful. I have images in my head and I don't know if they are real

While it’s difficult to have OCD, having it alone is not a good reason for not having children. Irrespective of your theme. No matter how hard we try, avoiding the things that trigger our thoughts doesn’t work. If it did, people with OCD would be cured the moment they weren’t around something that triggered them. The best course of action is active participation in treatment.

It was not my child, it was a friend's little sister. I don't think we were ever alone but I have so many fucking "what if" in my head that I no longer know what happened. I know two things: the child loved me and to this day she still talks amazing about me and I don't remember being afraid of going to jail (being found out).

And I wasn't telling you to turn yourself in I just was telling you to bring her in to get checked if she was your daughter I'm not for telling anybody to turn themselves in especially if they're sorry for what they did but I just believe that it's more important to protect the child. I'm sure you didn't harm that girl. I'm sure that's probably pocd. if I were in your shoes I would probably just avoid being alone with kids all together but that's my pdoc talking and I'm new to this so I'm probably not the best at giving advice right now

I know same here and the worst part is I have a child and I can't even be a mom to him. I physically abused him in the past due to drugs and alcohol which I have gotten clean from but now I'm afraid that I may sexually abuse him and even though I have no desire to the fear of it alone just keeps me from getting custody of him they have tried to give him back to me on multiple times but I have told the case worker I don't know why but I feel like I may sexually abuse him. And she always tells me that I'm sabotaging myself to be a mom. And when I started looking it up I found out what I have is pocd. I'm just so afraid to get him back and then actually hurt him I don't want to and I know it sounds crazy why would you do something that you don't want to do but I just don't want to take a risk but I also don't want to be afraid to be around kids all together but I feel like a bad person. but maybe by the end of this course I will be able to get some help but I feel so gross just for even having the thoughts like I don't even have thoughts of hurting him I just have fears or like a fear of hurting him I don't have thoughts of doing it but I have a fear that I might do it

My ocdstory maybe at the end of this recovery well feel better and maybe we'll actually get to be parents good parents

I just feel like I am high risk to hurt my son because I've already physically abused him before but at the time even though I was abusing drugs and alcohol and I have gotten clean I just feel like I'm still a bad parent

Yes it is

Myocdstory if you ever need a friend I'm here

I don't judge and I know this is hard. Don't take your life. I don't really have a job right now so I'm available most of the time. Feel free I measagee anytime

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