I cant see myself with a woman in a romantic way....like in reality i cant but my mind keeps making me think all scenerios with girls and it feels so weird, i dont want it Im so scared i do It feels like i retrained my brain to think of girls yet i cant see them in that light when it comes down to it cause im not a lesbian nor do i want to be I wanna be with a man and boy crazy and find guys extremely hot without having to feel weird about it:( Does this sound like im in denial?

I understand. I have had sensations when seeing mens bodies. But really it's up to us what we want. The way I see it is if you don't want to be gay. You are not gay. Truly gay people actually want to be gay they are just afraid of being judged. Also, don't trust every sensation you have. Remeber that the mind, emotions and body are very good servants but terrible masters.

@Jason1101 I’m not sure I would like doing stuff with girls because I literally never see them as more than friends or rivals. But I get so scared that I would like it and I’m married. This has stopped me from sex because I’m so scared

@wellwellwell I can only tell you that I have improved my ocd by doing my best to not take it so seriously. And know that no matter what, it's My Choice, not anything or anyone elses. It's your choice what you want. So I think your husband would probably like to be intimate with his wife.

@Jason1101 I just can’t. If I have a thought and it arouses me or if I’m aroused and think about it I’ll just lose all desire

But it feels like im more attracted to girls than guys when i dont want to be I dont even want to do anything with girls But my mind always is like “girls are so pretty and attractive how can’t you he attracted to them” and im like yeah girls are gorgeous but i dont want to have sex with one but then my mind goes “are you sure? Are you lying? You’re in denial of liking girls. Just accept it.” Then i start testing and get even more confused But with guys i can only see myself with one. Ive only ever had crushes on guys since i was a little girls. I fell in love with this guy three years ago and hes the only one i truly want to have sex with, kiss, and all that stuff. That feeling i have with him ive never had with anyone else. And my body responds to guys touches, even if im not attracted to them. And even if i am, i have this blockage in my head (i was really badly sexually assaulted by a guy as a kid). But my head keeps going “why do you even find guys attractive? They’re not even that good looking. Guys dont have boobs they have chests, they’re nothing big.” And im like “uhhh i wanna lay on a guys chest and kiss a guy and cuddle a guy, i dont want to do that with a girl. That makes me uncomfortable.” even now i wanna do that stuff with a guy. But my head wont allow me to be attracted to men and be sure of it :( Does that happen to you but the ladder?

Im not attracted to women, i think girls are pretty though which is normal. Did it sound like I was attracted to women and denying it???????

And whenever i do test, im never turned on. Im uncomfortable and dont want it. Never had a reaction to a girl, it makes me super uncomfortable and scared ill have one

Oh god im sorry your comment triggered me, do i sound like im a lesbian? Do you think i am from what ive told you?

Plz respond 😭

@hate_ocd.123 No you don't sound like a lesbian at all.

@hate_ocd.123 You are obviously a straight women who is attracted to men only and has problems with ocd.