anyone else so scared if the future? i hate hearing ab change it makes me so scared that in the future i’m going to be gay

holy shit that made me feel so much better.. thank you

@Anonymous Yep. Didn’t fall in love with any girls like I feared

@wellwellwell how do u cope w the thoughts and feelings??? (in a relationship)

@Anonymous To be honest, it’s really really hard. It’s made it super difficult for me to even have sex so I often don’t. And that makes me so sad because I want to

@wellwellwell i get that.. sometimes i’ll have rumination during it and my brain goes in so many ways it’s hard to focus on what rlly matter, them.

@Anonymous It makes me so upset and I cry a lot after sex.

@wellwellwell does he know?

@Anonymous Yes which makes me even more sad. I would do anything to enjoy sex. It really makes me feel like a bad wife.

@wellwellwell How do you deal with it

@wellwellwell my bf doesn’t know, i’m scared he will take it the wrong way on my end and i’m not ready for that yet. we’ve only been dating a year so we’ll see. i don’t rlly know how i deal w it i kinda don’t give it attention but it’s not rlly working. i just want to go back to how i was before. i have no desire to be in a relationship w a women but idk why these thoughts haunt me

@Anonymous I understand, just know you’re not alone. I have these thoughts because I’ve always been more turned on by erotic images of women vs men, but I’m not attracted to women I meet or check out women in real life.

@wellwellwell ME TOO!! i get so many intrusive images which gives me a groinal response. like i’m not turned off by the images which i think is the main thing keeping me on this. but i could never see myself in the future being in love w a women, it kinda makes me uncomfortable

@Anonymous Agreed. And I’ve always been naturally attracted to men. But like a random shirtless guy does nothing for me. But a sexy actress in a revealing outfit does nothing for me either. Like I’m not in love with female celebrities or pretty girls

@wellwellwell totally in the same boat. i never was in love or intrigued by any girls. these images never bothered me before ocd either but now when i see a woman in a reveling outfit my brian naturally goes to thinking of sexual images in a sexual matter. it sucks... it’s like i trained my brain to think these thoughts. but i know any sexual thoughts bring up sexual feelings but it’s still bothersome

@Anonymous I just feel like I associate females with sexual material too. But I was turned on by boobs when I was younger which I hate

@wellwellwell don’t, i feel like a bunch of ppl have had similar situations. u can’t associate who u are now with your younger self. if your married your married and with him for a reason, ocd if just giving you that thought trying to get power

@Anonymous I know I just really am terrified that sex with a woman would be better and I’m just fooling myself

@wellwellwell i get that thought all the time.. like sex is good rn but u feel like it could be better... it sucks i actually do think that way all the time also

@Anonymous I just want to be okay. It’s like I have all this evidence I’m gay and I just am done

@wellwellwell i understand you and ur not alone. we are very similar and i know u can get through this as i hope i can too!! best of luck to you

@Anonymous Thank you, you as well❤️❤️

i’m going into college in a few months and i’m so terrified i’m gonna change and “find my self” there

@Anonymous i also hate making plans in the future w my boyfriend cause what if i hurt him:(