Ihateocd83
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izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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Do you constantly try to test yourself and see if you’re gay? Do you see it as a seperate piece that you feel is inevitable or will happen although you have no attraction (only intrusive thoughts)? Do you enjoy the intrusive thoughts when you get them? These are all helpful questions to distinguish the two ❤️
IhateOCD99IhateOCD99
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Wow, some of the most wise advice I have read on this topic. Thank you very much :)
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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@Mb Any time!
nGfloatnGfloat
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I would say the one tricky thing there is enjoying the intrusive thoughts. It is reallly hard to tell sometimes. We get do delusional that we will be anxious and freaking out, but still convinced we like the thoughts at the same time.
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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@nGfloat True. I think the best indicator is the “forcing an identity one”. Do you label yourself something and feel like it’s a label that was GIVEN to you? That’s a really helpful distinguisher imo
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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Something I heard that makes sense especially for HOCD is this: Someone’s sexual orientation is like their eye color. They don’t really think too much of it. If any HOCD thoughts make you uncomfortable, I’d say it’s the OCD. If you constantly “force an identity” upon yourself because of your HOCD, it’s definitely just the illness. So think about the eye color thing; do you obsess over what color your eyes are or is it just a thing that’s a part of you? Sometimes it can be hard to distinguish but I hope this helped at least a little bit
nGfloatnGfloat
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That’s how I feel. I feel like I have to be gay. It makes me uncomfortable and distressed, but my head tells me that’s what I like and want. It’s such a struggle. I actually try to be gay sometimes and I’m so confused.
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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@nGfloat Exactly! That’s a forced label
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@izzleswizzle I cant do anything without a thought or feeling popping up its exaushting. This is basically on my mind all day
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I do think like giving in sometimes but it doesnt seem right somehow i test my reactions to the thoughts
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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@Ihateocd83 I understand. The thoughts are exhausting, especially when you keep telling yourself that you don’t want them plaguing your mind. Trust me it will get easier.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@izzleswizzle I keep thinking i will have to do something with a man in a sneaky kind of way. Wtf
izzleswizzleizzleswizzle
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@Ihateocd83 A common symptom is feeling like you might be gay one day so this makes sense. It’s a tricky disease, it really likes to confuse you.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@izzleswizzle Sometimes it feels like i already am. I keep imageing myself in situations and scenarios and i get constant groinals in my butt. I cant even lay on my side anymore or my front 😞
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 I was there man. It gets better. You have to stop paying as much attention or caring as much about the sensations. I also was getting thoughts that I would have to try something and it felt like that’s what would make me happy even though I was actually quite depressed.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat Thanks mate. Are you on medication mate?
nGfloatnGfloat
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@Ihateocd83 40 mg prozac
nGfloatnGfloat
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@nGfloat I will probably go up to 60 or 80 mg.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@nGfloat Im on that how are you finding it?. ive been on it for 16 years stoped for 3 months back on it for 4 months been on 60mg for about 6 weeks. Just dont know if its doing the trick 😞
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