There is this one thing that has been eating my head since morning, back when I didn't know that there is something like HOCD, I had tried CBT after watching videos about anxiety treatment cuz I could put a hand on it and tell that it was anxiety so during that time I used to everyday repeat it's okay if I am bisexual, even if its 2% it's okay. One of my bisexual friend told me that even if you are attracted to same sex like 2% then you are busexual but what I didn't get at that time was that busexual don't freak out if they find someone attractivee or even thought that someone was beautiful,where as I freaked the holy out of myself. So I did this exercise for a month and then when my bisexual guy friend asked me "Did you figure out what your SO is" I replied "I think I am bisexual but I don't want to do anything sexual or romantic with women" and my friendwent like then just go and check on internet weather there is some sort of another sexual orientation but there was no results and that totally meant then I was still obseessing over other what if I like my best friends and I started to avoid her and then when I saw this women on morning walk I got a strong groin and I freaked out and I got really confused and that was when i just googled and found that there is something known as HOCD. I know it was all the fault of the lack of information I had but mind is going like that you accepted that you are Bi this must mean that you are. If I was actually bi then I wouldn't have freaked put by the thought what if I like my best friend and I wouldn have freaked out and cried for hours and I wouldn't have freaked out after looking at the woman on the morning walk. But my mind is like bullying me and constantly saying that you accepted it you accepted it, but bisexuals want to date same sex and want to be physical with them and that is why my bisexual guy friend told me search web for some other sort of sexuality. Because busexuals want to be with both sexes but I didn't want that and not do I want it now and bisexuals don't get triggered after looking at girl and thinking they are pretty. My mind is constantly going like what if I am in denial, what if I just tricked myself into thinking that this is ocd. But if it wasn't OCD I wouldn't have related to it, and I would have not freaked out and searched google for phobia of being bisexual. This is eating my head off.