does anyone else’s SO-OCD start with sexual thoughts and then once you kinda habituated with those ones and came to a conclusion, they switched to romantic thoughts??? i’ve never thought ab actually dating a girl until now and it feels like i want too even thought i’ve only ever been sexually/romantically attracted to guys and love men

Sexual Orientation OCD

mh31

Date posted: 4y

aw well good for you!! and you’ll get through it just try not to give it as much power, that’s my goal rn is to just laugh at it almost and to stop giving it so much importance even tho it’s really hard

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Date posted: 4y

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mh31

Date posted: 4y

i feel like everyone always talks about sexual and mine are like all romantic now😂

mh31

Date posted: 4y

@lypc right they’re so much worse like for what

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@mh31 Yeah, the sexual ones were bearable compared to this now. It is so confusing.

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Date posted: 4y

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mh31

Date posted: 4y

thank you🥺

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

At least you know your history! That’s good. Yeah mine has turned romantic but I’m more terrified of sexual attraction personally

mh31

Date posted: 4y

okay so we’re opposites😂😂

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@mh31 Hahah yeah. But I feel like I have my own reasons to be afraid about sexual attraction. I know I only get crushes on guys thank god but yeah

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

Yeah, it bounces back and forth for me. The sexual has a little less power now because of endless checking compulsions that I got tired of, but it really feels sometimes like I want to date a guy (or even be romantic with my dad or godfather or some shit). I get like a romantic feeling sometimes and almost like an internal smile even though my face cringes and I start to panic. Worried this is just denial.

mh31

Date posted: 4y

omg i feeeeeeeel u on that like the sexual lost power for me and now it’s all romantic and i’ll literally be like cooking or something and i’ll go “what if i was doing this with a girlfriend” or any time i think of doing things w a boy my brain makes me think of a girl and sometimes i feel like i could actually have a gf even tho i don’t want one

mh31

Date posted: 4y

but i also feel u on the incest type stuff i get that sometimes too

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@mh31 Yeeeep. I’ll be doing similar stuff and it’s like would you want to do this with a guy? When I check sometimes, it feels like I actually want it even though there is something off. It sucks because I love my gf and used to love doing cute stuff with her and snuggling and stuff. The fact that I enjoy cuddling makes me feel gay sometimes too even though I know that is misogynistic and backwards thinking.

mh31

Date posted: 4y

@nGfloat yes something always feels off like i always feel weird ab it or uncomfortable even if i don’t always get the anxiety and i feel u i feel like i don’t even wanna do anything w guys anymore and it sucks

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@mh31 Yeah exactly. I get like the feeling of discomfort and that it is weird but there is almost something behind it making it feel like that’s me now or that’s what I want. What adds to the confusion is that when I’m with my gf, I am all over her and wanting to treat her and just be a good boyfriend. I’m hoping we get through this.

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@nGfloat I also have less anxiety sometimes almost like it’s a given.

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