question for hocd sufferers - did any of you ever have fantasies about the lesbian/gay porn you were watching and climax and did any of you ever have a fantasy about a friend ? i did due to how much i watched porn and its really messing me up. i never saw her that way and still don’t but it just won’t leave my mind, sometimes i don’t even think it ever happened but it feels so real so i’m not even sure. i feel alone, can anyone relate? and if you have advice it would be nice 🤍

i don’t think these fantasies mean anything but my brain just won’t accept that and it’s getting frustrating

@Anonymous i feel that. if i didn’t have these fantasies i don’t think i would be thinking i was sexually attracted to girls

@holley same. porn really messed up my mindset

@Anonymous it really sucks. but if they don’t make you anxious that doesn’t mean anything i have learned that. fantasies are okay

@holley yeah they are. i’m in my teens so i consider it me just being curious. hocd taught me what i really want and that what i did in the past and what i watched in the past say nothing about me now cause i’m a different person. we relate on many things so i hope you use this advice !

@Anonymous i’m 18 and i think that it probably doesn’t mean anything but still that doubt in my mind is still there because of the frequency that the fantasies always pop up

@holley me too! i’m 16! it’s sad how young we are to have this awful thing happen to us!

@Anonymous it’s absolutely stupid i don’t even think bisexual women go through fantasizing about only one thing constantly i’m pretty sure ocd has a part in this as well. i’m glad you stopped watching porn i wish i would’ve stopped when i first started watching it and even while i was watching it and before ocd i don’t think i remember fantasies like this so often

@holley yeah, before this i knew they didn’t mean anything but my ocd takes things so seriously and uses everything as proof

@Anonymous i just worry because i used to identify as bi last year but all i did was date and mess around with guys so i know that wasn’t who i actually was i just worry that NOW i am

@holley oh i never identified as bi, it never sounded right with me. i know i’ve always liked men haha

@Anonymous i did it for attention i know i wasn’t bi and i can’t even believe i called myself that

@Anonymous ME!

i don’t think this is false attraction tbh. but because of my porn watching it led me to fantasizing about a friend.

me too. it made me fantasize about a friend of mine who i saw as a sister and made me fantasize of things i’ve never thought about doing.

@Anonymous Yup, me too. Always remember that OCD can feel SO REAL. Feelings, urges, and thoughts can all feel so real.

@Anonymous yes i do put that in mind whenever i get a thought.