lolashewas
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NoRuminationsNoRuminations
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- 4y
First , you should stop checking what turns you on and what doesn’t. That is going to do nothing but make it worse. The brain does not know you orientation. Anything can turn a person on. Your brain looks for dopamine, especially in pornography. Your brain tends to like things more taboo. Sometimes your brain likes the anxiety that comes with it. I can’t stress this enough, but STOP checking. You will never find what you’re looking for.
holleyholley
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so you’re saying fantasies and taboo things don’t mean anything about sexual orientation and that that’s just the brain and the actions are what matter right?
NoRuminationsNoRuminations
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Yes, So I was addicted to porn. And I was so confused why I went from watching straight porn to gay porn. But yeah there is a lot of research on it. There are so many people who watch things that they don’t identify with. It becomes an addiction and something you brain looks for. There are a lot of people who have start having HOCD becuase or it too. That’s why i recommend people to stop watching porn. Especially us with HOCD.
nGfloatnGfloat
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- 4y
Have you gotten any better man? I’ve done so many checking compulsions that I honestly can’t tell anymore.
NoRuminationsNoRuminations
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@nGfloat So from when my HOCD first flared up, I have gotten better. Not watching porn has helped me, because it became a constant checking of what aroused me more. And we know how that goes🤦🏽♂️ I am trying to break the habit of constant “checking”. It became so automatic to check if I was attracted to someone of either sex, and it would always let me down. I’m trying to get to the point where I don’t care. It doesn’t matter and shouldn’t matter. This is my life, and I don’t want to be controlled by my thoughts and feelings that are unwanted. Do your best to break the “checking compulsions”. It has been the hardest thing for me to break, I have still been doing it constantly. But hey any progress is progress. I can 100% say if I never started watching porn, I don’t think my HOCD would have flared up like this. There was an article i read before. It mentioned if you were to live on the farm with no internet, phone , or TV your entire life, do you think your HOCD would still be there?
AnonymousAnonymous
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@NoRuminations same! my hocd would’ve never started if i never watched porn.
nGfloatnGfloat
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@NoRuminations I still struggle man. I had the most intense feeling I think I have ever felt in my chest and it felt like I wanted to be gay with every ounce of my being, but now I’m confused and can’t tell if I like it or not.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
this is research based, but the female brain can literally get turned on by ANYTHING sexual. no matter what. i wouldn’t worry tbh
lolashewaslolashewas
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please someone respond
holleyholley
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- 4y
i can’t give you reassurance but if it makes you feel any better i’m scared the reason i’m not being bi is bc my bf got mad at me when i came out to him. he’s not against it but he just hates when i say it bc he knows it’s not me. and of course me fearing abandonment i wanna be with him so i’m scared of that.
holleyholley
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- 4y
i genuinely cried after i told him and not a happy cry it was a compulsion.
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