Can someone read this? I'm starting to get worried about this. I'm fucking scared I'm starting to get by aroused to this. I don't know if it's me being hyperaware of my penis area or the anxiety I get when exposed to triggers. I've always been attracted to women only my entire life with no desire otherwise, I've always enjoyed relationships with women and wanted a wife. Now it seems I get aroused slower than before. I've never been attracted to men and I don't want to be attracted to them now. I can't take this anymore. I broke down yesterday saying, "I hate you" over and over. I don't know if I was talking to God, ocd, or myself. I want to be my normal self again. My ocd has been more quiet recently and went from it screaming in my head constantly to almost quiet. Now I feel I've turned gay. I've always wanted a wife. I don't want to change. I don't have money for medication or therepy because of Covid and getting laid off. I feel fucked.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Louise

Date posted: 4y

This is a totally typical way OCD likes to manifest itself and mess with our minds 🙃 recognising it’s your ocd talking is half the battle, when u know it’s ur ocd thoughts saying this and not u, u can start to acknowledge them but learn to not pay attention. It will get better :)

BF109G-6

Date posted: 4y

Thank you.

Carl Cornett

Date posted: 4y

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BF109G-6

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much.

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