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I know how you feel, Daisy! It can be hard and feel like you aren't doing enough BUT I do know that we can't always rely on feelings but Jesus appreciates commitment to reading about him. I often will read and have questions, or not a good enough feeling and feel like maybe i do not believe enough or I am not good enough but that's not what God sees. “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you” (James 4:8). He will draw near to you if you draw near to Him, even if you can't feel Him, it doesn't mean He isn't there!! “All that the Father gives Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out” Hope this helps in any way!! If you have any questions I will be happy to try to help!! A devotional may be able to help you as well!
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I appreciate that. I think next step is finding balance... i don't want to be complacent, but if I try to read everything right now I will panic. I don't know. Maybe it would help to do it with someone. Or just stop thinking about it and just do it.
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@Daisy102 I totally understand how you feel!! I think its better to start small and not put pressure to know everything you need to. Reading it with someone would be a good idea, even through zoom or something!
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Thank you though I really appreciate your words and taking time to help em
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Oh wow!!! Me too ooo. Yay someone who is writing what I am experiencing! I think I huge error is that we are looking at our feelings as markers of our faith. Thankfully, God doesn't love us because how much we feel in awe of Him, or if we fall on our face with praise. He loves us, if we have transfered all our trust from ourselves INTO what Jesus did on the cross. I too, am much like you. I still battle with this. A lot of things are triggering.. Hearing other people pray, being with others in worship, worship songs, being in church. I cry often.. All because I think my feelings aren't 'right'. God will help us get through ocd. I encourage you to read Ted Wiztigs articles on ocd. He has a few! Here is one: https://www.accounseling.org/scrupulosity-ocd-mending-your-god-image/ I don't think the answer is trying more. Because I already do that, and the more I do that the less I feel certain. We get help for ocd, because what you are describing is ocd. People will try and fix us by throwing us more spiritual answers, but they don't realise that OCD is illogical and based on compulsions and obsessions.
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There is a song called Enough. And one line is 'I am not loved by the measure of loved that I bring, I am loved unconditionally.' That means God doesn't love us on the amount of FEELINGS we have, we are loved because of Jesus. (coming from an understanding that one has already made jesus their saviour and put all their trust on what happened at the cross... Not just for the unbeliever.) Anyway I really like that line because of my OCD ❤️
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Is it possible to follow Christ without actually believing? I want God but don't always trust and especially with Jesus/Christianity. I want to believe and I don't but I am still drawn in; it is comforting and compelling. I like what Jesus represented, I like the teachings (although don't always seem practical and seemingly so hard to live up to), and I LOVE Christian music. I love the community. It is so hard to embrace it really and it although gives me comfort brings on a lot of anxiety and confusion. I feel like I have no control to function when I am supposed to let myself be led; I don't even know what that means when I have to think and move my body to live. I want to have a strong faith in God in general without feeling condemned. I want to feel there is a God holding on to me so I don't feel so alone, restless, and lost. Who better to love than your creator? Who better to put your trust in to help you in times of despair. I cant help to think that the Bible is a myth and although if Jesus did exist was only a prophet. My conditioning and impulses are constantly rejecting it and so many times I opened myself up only to quit the next day because it doesn't stick. I am constantly met with rejecting thoughts and fear. It's not sustainable. At the same time, I love him and his story well I only read a little of the Bible and intended to sermons, etc. Another thing, how do I know what is the truth when I am getting interpretations of the Bible when reading, listening to others interpretations through pastoral sermons and other people voicing their opinion?
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Anyone else struggling with reading their bible or having a certain feeling to feel like God loves them and if they don’t it ruins their whole time with God. Makes pursuing him really hard. Any tips ?
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Recently, I have been obsessing big time over being the best girlfriend I can be and being the best Christian I can be at the same time. Its rough since I always have these lingering thoughts that I’m leading me and my boyfriend down a path of sin by being more passionate to the point of having lustful intrusive thoughts when with him sometimes despite the fact that we’re both not wanting to go past pretty passionate kissing. For some extra context here, I’ve grown up in a Christian household my whole life and over the past few years, have been getting progressively more interested in my faith after temporarily abandoning it. It’s been tricky knowing what’s okay and what’s not okay to do, especially since I don’t view it as a religion necessarily but more like me wanting to get to know my creator better, show how thankful I am to be here/have everyone who is in my life and show said thankfulness by being as devoted as possible while still being who I am to my core. As for my relationship, I have been with my bf for almost 6 months now and he’s made me the happiest girl in the world, constant hugs, kisses, sweet little gestures that make my heart melt, caring comfort, the purest of love in my opinion and I’m so blessed to have him as my partner. Unfortunately though, I’m always worrying about him and our future together and how this will work since he himself isn’t a Christian. A lot of people who aren’t Christian’s won’t understand this logic but my brain always goes to 2 places. 1 is possible disagreements we may have about how we want our lives to go since I don’t want to hold him back from what he truly desires. That though, may not always align with what I have in place for my life. 2, quite frankly the worst one, is worrying about my bf not going to a good place after he dies. Now, this is not because of him as a person (he’s the best, very kind, sweet, supportive and loyal) but rather, because of rejecting God from coming into his life, and that scares me more than anything. Basically, I was taught that going to heaven is accepting God into your life and having your sins forgiven, and if you don’t, your rejecting the one thing that can take away all your imperfections and make you whole once more, which leads you to not fully making the mark despite me practically begging on my knees that it wasn’t this way for the sake of others who may not view things the same as me (no disrespect towards others btw, I love and respect people no matter what the believe or do). Does that make me sound judgmental? Yea, it probably does, but I swear, I wish it wasn’t this way. Based on what I’ve come to understand as a believer in God and Jesus, it’s not that simple. Knowing that, there’s 2 things that I mainly worry about due to the context and concerns I have. I worry about being a bad influence and Christian as a whole because of how much I struggle with my mental health and how much I fall to my own imperfections. I try and I try but I never feel like I’m good enough, that I’m probably a lukewarm Christian (iykyk) and that even I won’t go to heaven because of my own doubts and mistakes. I pray constantly for reassurance and for peace so I can be with my bf and even by myself and not feel this overwhelming weight crushing my shoulders constantly. It’s scary, not knowing what to do, how to feel, if what I’m feeling is okay or not, etc. Idk if anyone else is in my shoes, whether they are worried about being a not good enough person, not strong enough in your beliefs, or even loving someone and worrying for them and their future to such an extreme extent. If there’s anyone out there who might have some advice to make the fear fade away, even if it’s a little bit, I would be forever grateful. Before I end this, I just want to say your are loved and appreciated for who you are and nothing will change that fact, even if you may not feel that way, I’ve been coming to accept that the more the years go by and I wish for everyone to know this. Anyways, God bless and hope everyone has an amazing day/night. ❤️
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