Question for the girls: Idk if this is me but i started to feel so much less pretty cus of hocd. Suddenly i got so insecure bout things i never was insecure about. I aways felt so pretty and idk i feel like hocd rlly damaged my confidence and energy. Idk what or how that happened but istg that i get less attention from men? Idk whats going on but i have no other explanation than that is has sum to do with hocd bc it started since my hocd started developing. Like it brought down my energy and presence because im always anxious and sad and overwhelmed/drained. Could that be it? Because i remeber me as always making eye conract with men and having that tension going on, getting compliments, men getting nervous around me and staring at me, all of that. And now that its gone i miss it a lot. It makes me feel worthless and not pretty. And the weird thing is my friends say they dont notice any physical changes and im jus so confused like whats going on. How did i went from feeling so confident, pretty and attractive to feeling so ignored by men and having to put in a lot of work (like makeup) to feel pretty. I don’t recognize this version of me. Can anyone relate? It sucks so much because i used to not be able to wait to have a bf so i can cuddle and look pretty for him and all that. But now i really push it away because im insecure. I just wish i was myself so i can be happy and confident and have a healthy relationship.

Hey queen🥺🥰 yess so true that it feeds to the “u like girls then” thought. Ugh i feel so empty indeed.. thanks for Responding :))

@hocdgirlsummer Of course! I feel so empty inside a lot too. Deep down I know I’m straight and that I’ll end up with a man, but getting there is super hard

@Madeline Yeah faxx its just sooo hard to not feel the real flame and passion and the real attraction u know... ugh it just takes soo long its been here for 4 years now and ive truly lost my teenage years to this, the fact that if it leaves il prolly have to deal with the trauma and aftermath to going back to normal is already hard enough, and if it stays.. imma live a sad life lmao

@hocdgirlsummer You won’t! Right after I had one of the worst bouts of hocd I ended up dating my ex-boyfriend and it always felt 100% right and it never felt wrong. I know you’ll get there too

@hocdgirlsummer has yours been off and on?

@lolashewas Yes mine is constant on and off. When I’m back to normal I can laugh and say “Remeber when I thought I was gay” and I think it’s funny because I know my really swkf

@Madeline Omgg this sounds so hopefull!

@lolashewas Hmm yea id say so, but idk its never completely off. I defenitly have phases where i feel really “straight”and good for a while, not longer than a week lol and then i have very lows again. Its always ups and downs. But even in my ups, its never really gone so, im just distracted or ignoring it.

Omg exactly!! Ive started comaring too and i haaate it. I hate that i now feel jealous towards other girls its so.. ew... u know?? And like i miss being so confident, now i cant imagine not worrying my boyfriend (if i had one) would look to other girls. While i used to be super confident and i wouldnt worry about non of that. Its making me lose my personality and only focussing on looks. But idk i feel like somehow i actually lost the attention from men forreal.. and inwas wondering if any other girls have that issue because i really dont want it to be that i somehow magically turned unattractive overnight, or that it is due to me losing my feminine energy en hapiness, so maybe i attract less people or something?? Idk it all sounds weird but it makes me think so hard about what could have happened that men suddenly stopped showing so much attention and like stare, or get nervous or give compliments. I know i must sound really desperate for male atention, but its just so sad to being used to it and then suddenly losing it and not even knowing for what reason.. it always made me feel alive and idk without it life is so boring and empty. I always hared it when i was young because it gage me lots of social anxiety because it knew i was being watched, i even once prayed to god to make people stop looking, didnt do anythying then lol. But now that its gone i just get soooo insecure and i try to ffill that void by buying lots of makeup and product and i just miss the old days where i would go out natural and be prettt and people would be like, u look really good natural! Ugh i hate how this sounds so pethatic and desperate for compliments but it really just is me trying to figure out what has changed about me and if the sudden decreasing of attention could have anything to do with hocd... i just want to be my old self before hocd:/

Aahww hate to hear that ur insecure about having no curves, i acc had the same thing, i used to be very skinny and people would call me names like plank or flattylol cus i had no curves. Looking back i was twelve🤦🏽‍♀️ how did they expect me to have curves in the first place. Buttt the curves never came lol but I defenitly made peace with it. I acctually sort of love how i dont have a huge booty or a big chest because i hear people complain about backaches, always being sexualized and stuff, and i dont mean to say being skinny is superior, but not having many much issues that come with it defenitly helps me accept it more. I also have a lot of idols i look up to that have a skinny body type, like kendall, bella hadid, zendaya u know. Alsoo, yeah its so true that its hard and weird to see that i got less attention and i never thought it could make me feel this empty. And everytime im like, bro, just leave it its not that deep life isnt about looks. But i cant stop analyzing about what happened and how much it affected my life because eveywhere i go i notice that people treat me Different than they used to or something. And im trying soo hard to just figure out what it could be. Its just something on top of my hocd now lol. Butt sometimes im jealous of people who never had it in the first place because now I notice that its very addictive and how bad a person feels when its gone, and if i didnt had it in the first place, i wouldnt even know what i was missing and then i wouldnt be analyzing all this. I was very used to it and also made myself believe that i could get all the cute guys and all that lmao and then boom ever since hocd it its like my attraction wore off and now i have to accept all this and it eats my brain up. I hope that ill be happy in the end.