TW!!! Pocd and zocd Someone just sent me a message on reddit (I have an account there where I have a few ocd friends) and they told me to give in and found it hot and I should look at p*rn (I never saw p*rn of anything nor I ever will) of these topics and part of me felt "relaxed" that someone would accept me if I was a "p" or a "z" and I felt a small urge to do it. But a second after, I felt intense guilt and I started panicking!.... Am I a "p" and a "z"? Why didn't I felt immediately disgusted by this message and even felt tempted to just "give in"? I sent a reply immediately and said "never send me a message again" and I blocked this person. OCD is already hard enough to deal with! Now I have these trolls annoying me...

Yes! They did...

@myocdstory bro that's f***ed up

@lmolnar do not do that

@lmolnar Ofc I won't!! I'd never!

WHAT THE FUCK THEY NEED TO BE REPORTED AND INVESTIGATED THAT SHIT IS NOT COOL STAY FAR AWAY FROM THEM

Thank you ♥️

Idk if the person who said this had ocd... :(

@myocdstory Absolutely fucking disgusting. This reminds me of the time I went on someone's instagram account and found cartoon CP on it. I reported that shit. Then I found another asshole glorifying sexualization of anime children. Why do people do this shit knowing it's wrong? And Instagram doesn't even report the idiot doing this.

@BigGip09 (sighs) yeah... It's bad...

@myocdstory I'm sorry you had to go through that. I'm sorry we had to go through that please don't feel like it's your fault it's not at all. I don't want you to ruminate on something like this. I'm so sorry

@BigGip09 You're so kind... Thank you! Please don't worry about me. I'm ok. ^^

@myocdstory No problem! I wish you the best, buddy.

Yes! I do! I completely understand you!

@myocdstory OMG FINALLY !!

@Ocdfear03 Even though my heart pounds away at something so horrible and sick, OCD still has the nerve to make it sound like it's not that bad. It's sickening

@BigGip09 Do you ever feel like it’s something you want ? Or that you don’t feel like it bothers you that much. Or that you kinda want it

@Ocdfear03 In terms of feeling it, not really. I don't ever feel an urge to want the things my OCD thinks about. It's more of I think of it so much that it's something I want or something that will hurt me or already has

@BigGip09 No I don’t feel any desire. It’s just kinda feels like an unnamed feeling. Kinda like you have no desire to do these things but you think you do when you don’t

@Ocdfear03 Sounds like false attraction then. A lot of shit OCD presses on me appear to be false really. Feelings, memories, thoughts, and my clear conscience even. It's a bother

@BigGip09 It’s a bully. The way I deal with it is by recognising and remembering the trademark ocd behaviours and compulsions that make ocd recognisable

@Ocdfear03 I try my best to constantly tell myself to disregard all the thoughts feelings and urges

@BigGip09 Just remember buddy. It ain’t who you are. I never used to have these thoughts.

@Ocdfear03 Exactly. Neither did I. I never got these thoughts but it sometimes feels real because it's real event OCD

@BigGip09 You have real event pocd ?

@Ocdfear03 Real event, harm, and Perfectionism. Majority of my events focus on me sexting as a minor with other minors, worried about the things I've seen on porn sites, and when I discovered YouTube had fucked up playlists involving children being exploited ever since I searched for girls my age (18) for softcore content

@BigGip09 I was just really fucked up as a kid. Can we talk together. It’d really help me to talk to someone with similar problems

@Ocdfear03 Sure, it always helps when someone understand. I had a really shit time in my adolescence.

Thank you!! I'm glad I'm not alone in this... I really hope it's a false feeling... Gosh! I have this fear of becoming a p or a z if a person would still love me. It's horrible

@myocdstory i have that same fear too and it's really killed my already low self-esteem :( but we can beat this! <3 i wish u well

@feethebee Thank you so much!

Here is fine for me. If not for you, what do you prefer?

Sure I have that, but how old are you? I usually accept friend requests with people my age or older

I'm 19 years old.

Yeah I guess that's not so bad. My OCD usually does kick in when talking to younger people cause it usually doesn't make me comfortable making friends outside my age group. I suppose it's completely fine this time. Are you a male or female?