Ihatethis
- Date posted
- 4y
ArtNinjaGirlArtNinjaGirl
- Date posted
- 4y
I don’t know anything about Carson but yeah I used to be a fan of MiniLadd. I already kinda started to not like him before this news came out because of the drama between him and Terrorizer and him apparently just becoming an all around douchebag in general, but this stuff about messaging underage people was the nail in the coffin. Also Cryaotic too. When I learned that about him (even though I swear I had heard that news before) I started becoming paranoid and anxious that every single Youtuber I watched (hell, every person with some kind of internet fame) was secretly a pedo. I’m over that now but yeah. I do think a part of it was the power and influence going to their heads. As could be said about any pedo really. But yeah it’s anxiety inducing for me too.
ArtNinjaGirlArtNinjaGirl
- Date posted
- 4y
And I saw the gist of the Carson situation on Twitter (was scrolling my feed and saw Cr1t1kal talking about it) and I’m anxious about it but can’t really place why. Maybe I’m worried that a similar situation happened with me when I was 19 (even though I’ve never gotten or sent any nudes in my life, just getting a few unsolicited dick pics when I was like 15 from a supposed 16 year old in Canada). I don’t know, all I do know is now I’m anxious (not your fault though. I wanna make that clear)
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 4y
@ArtNinjaGirl I have the same thing where I know it wasn't sexting or flirting with people when I was 18 or 19 the age I am now only when I was a minor sexting with other minors but I still get anxiety about it because there may be an age gap but I say it shouldn't matter since we're both underaged but then I feel bad either way. Then when I don't feel bad about this, I ruminate about the bad playlist thing I saw on YouTube when I wasn't looking for that kind of content. Nothing of the sort had came up now and I don't look or accidentally see things that exploit children. This even happened on instagram and Twitter but I always blame myself for using the apps in the first place in those moments
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