Intrusive thoughts after intrusive thoughts after intrusive thoughts

I’ll remember lol it’s at 1 so I’m about an hour

R u holding the knife as a compulsion? I do it to every once in a while to test myself I don’t know why cause I can eat dinner beside my family while using a knife.

They gonna tell you all kinds of stuff. Mine does all the time. Tells me where I can place dead bodies now that shit is crazy lol

It is maddening. Mental torture on the bad days. You ain’t alone friend trust me my thoughts have been dark. Yesterday was a bad day for me but today I feel great lol it’s so weird like why can’t it be like this every day!

Yes!!! The same!! I can’t take that shit anymore

@Anja82 You can do this!

What’s the one thing people don’t want you to do?

@Dre83 Please don’t say suicide 😌

@Dre83 Yeah suicide, i can’t live like this. Always fearing the worst in everything I do :(

@Ellaaaax No ellaaax. Please don’t do that I care for you as a human and I’m sure you have plenty of people who love you. I love you from person to person. Your life is so worth it even if it doesn’t seem like in the moment. There are many people that want to help you believe me. Are you in the United States

@Ellaaaax What can I do to help you?

Well I love you so I count.

@Dre83 Hmm idk about that. Why do you love a stranger? I feel hopeless

@Ellaaaax Because you are a human, you have intrinsic worth, you were wonderfully and beautifully made, you care so much about other people that these thoughts bother you, I can relate with you on what you’re struggling with, I understand you pain and suffering, you were brought into this world for a reason, you were created in the image of God. Do you want me to give you more reasons?

I’m sorry that it has come to the point where you think this I your only option. Please don’t I walked in to my house a year a a half ago of my wife’s suicide attempt and I can’t begin to explain what it does to someone mentally. I’m so sorry I wish I could take your pain for you. My wife suffers from major depression.

Do you want to chat on discord?

Can you go seek help? Please for me your word that you will do that

No promise me please? Like can you make it to tomorrow? I’m over here crying for you 😭

Don’t beat yourself up please. I told you I care about you. They will help you and if they don’t fined someone else who will.

Tell them how you’re feeling just like you told me. You have a good heart to my friend. I will be checking on you. What time is it over there and what time is your appointment tomorrow

You are more than welcome friend!

@Dre83 :)))

@Ellaaaax Hey friend just checking on you to see how you are doing

Hey good day to you friend. Don’t be scared you are brave and courageous! I’m so happy to hear from you! Let me know how your appointment goes

So how did your appointment go?

That’s good news. Sorry that the mental health system isn’t where it needs to be in the UK. It’s not where it needs to be here either in the states. If you need help today just reach out to me.

Not a problem at all so glad I could help you!

Well one day you can have kids.

@Dre83 I don’t really want any tbh lol

@Ellaaaax Lol nothing wrong with that i understand. Is this the only theme you have had? I’ve having a rough moment as my ocd likes to refer to my wife as a b-$@& and I hate it. It just comes out of nowhere with it too. I’ve never called her that nor thought to call her that before ocd even when she has made me mad

Thank you. I gotta make a loop tape to help my anxiety about it. My harm ocd loves attacking her I will think I’m over it then bam here that mother fucker comes again lol

It is horrible it’s like our brains are against us.

@Dre83 Yeah literally:(

@Ellaaaax How long have you had ocd? I just got it 8 months ago at the age of 36 fuck like was so good before this shit lol

Mine too!!!

@Dre83 Yes!! Exactly!

Well one night I had a nightmare about stabbing my wife and that shit fucked me up but also when I walked in to my wife’s suicide attempt there was a knife on the table so I thought she used it but she didn’t and used pills instead so I think it’s a mixture of the two things

What time is your appointment today?

Thanks. I’m dealing with it as best as possible. What’s sad is I get relief when it attacks someone else besides my family. I hate it attacking my family. And oh ok I knew I had one today just wasn’t sure when time it’s at. So are you in college or in the workforce?

Yeah I work it’s just mental torture at times. In the beginning I thought I was going crazy was going to put myself in the psych ward and everything.

Thanks for the encouragement 🙂

How was your appointment did you get what u wanted out of it

Dam what the fuck! I’m so sorry that shitty

Did you see like a primary care doctor or a psychiatrist?

You are being brave and are trying to get help. Shame on whoever you saw to help you this is ridiculous l. They are not doing their duty. This upsets me

Can you see a psychiatrist?

@Dre83 My next appointment with him is in March

@Ellaaaax Can you see him sooner? Sounds like you might get more help than these support worker. Wish there more I could do to help you.

Okay, yeah speak up for yourself you are your biggest advocate. Glad we crossed paths!

@Dre83 I will do and yeah me too!

@Ellaaaax Hey Friend, good day to you! How has your day been so far? Have you had the chance to contact your psychiatrist so you can see him sooner?

My day is going good. It’s still morning here in Virginia. Glad it’s Friday lol. So you don’t want to bother your therapist? Do you feel you don’t need the help or just tired of not getting answers? I would encourage you to reach out what’s the worst that can happen. I hope u do for your own health.

Sister your problems are stupid believe me that’s what they are there for. They didn’t seem stupid to me and that’s why I’m checking on you.

How are you doing friend?

@Dre83 I’m okay for now, how are you?

@Ellaaaax Yay I’m glad to hear from you! I’m hanging in there. I’ve have some rough patches over the last few days. Do you have discord?

I wish there was chat capability on this app

Yeah I just messaged the support chat to ask them about adding that option

@Dre83 Ahh right nice, I hope they do!