I hate pOCD. I struggle with urges, is it normal to get urges with pOCD? My therapist said I should hold my toddler, change his diaper, etc. But I feel like I am white knuckling it through those. I also struggle after I change a diaper or give a bath that the only reason I cleaned an area was due to desire. This sucks so bad.

I've read a lot about ocd as well as people's experiences on here as well as my own occasional experience with urges and they are are normal with ocd. Ocd can make you believe you want to do a lot of things because it is the doubting disease, making you doubt your morals, doubt the fact you have ocd, doubt anything. You are NOT ALONE. If you're able, see a therapist, if not, continue to look into tools to help your anxiety. It takes practice and it SUCKS and is so hard and you don't trust yourself but trust me, it is worth it.

You can get through it. It's normal for ocd

I have been through what you are going through it's all normal for someone who has ocd. You just have to learn to manage these thoughts and feelings and not let them control you

And let them go

I have found the hardest thing is having experiences that don’t feel normal and having a therapist that won’t explain to me what is ocd normal since she doesn’t want to reassure me. I just want assurance that the urge to act out is a normal experience. That the feelings I have are normal and I am on the right path. I feel like I am wandering down a path not knowing if I am on the right path. Thanks for the responses.

I used to feel so alone when I had POCD (which has returned). I’m almost convinced it’s the most prominent theme now.