Maybe obsessing has taken over my life... 😞 I’m losing my job soon and feel like I am gonna lose my partner too... 😞 every day I feel like a lier... I’ve obsessed about being sexually attracted to other men and if I am still sexually attracted to my partner still.. then I remembered I obsessed about this before but I was still able to have sex with him... 😞 I obsess saying I need to tell him the truth... when I am... but then I obsess if I am forcing myself to love him... I know I love him a lot. But why can’t my relationship go back to normal again... I am so depressed I can’t take it.. right now I feel like I wanna die... my life is turning into crap! 😞 tried of hearing Everything happens for a reason... or do what you know... I’ve imagined cutting my wrist before... or my rocking back and fourth with my hands on my head seeing my thoughts attack me... my partner is perfect for me. Even typing that I feel like I am in denial... 😞 I just wanna die right now... I hate my life.. I have such a caring partner and yet I feel this way...

Hi Mandy, I saw you commented on my post and I’ve seen you post often lately. I’m so sorry you’re going through this rough period. I remember you mentioned in another post that therapy could be helpful. I highly recommend it and I hope it helps you. I’ve been reading articles and listening to interviews by Dr. Steven Phillipson. It’s a pretty long one but I recommend reading his article, “Choice” which is online. In the meanwhile, I hope you can do what you can to feel better. You can get through this! 💫☀️

I know what you mean. I was in the same situation a few months ago with the job and rocd. It’s crazy seeing posts like this bc I feel or have felt with such similar things. And if it helps, you’re not alone. And I made it through that time and so will you. I’m doing ERP. Not paying attention to any negative thoughts. It’s just nonsense. Try to occupy your mind, stay busy. Act like the negative thoughts about your relationship language you don’t understand. Also I recommend watching Ali Greymond on YouTube.

Wow, 8 years! It’s been about a year for mine. I’m so sorry about having to struggle for that long. I don’t want to reassure you or send you to a reddit hole, but the person who responded to this particular thread said something that I think is helpful to know. As hard as it is, it must be put into practice. https://www.reddit.com/r/ROCD/comments/i0188e/what_to_do_when_youve_accepted_intrusive_thoughts/?utm_source=amp&utm_medium=&utm_content=post_body