I'm new to this app and really need support or someone to talk to right now. I've been feeling horrible the last 2 weeks. I feel like I have had OCD for about 8 years now but recently it has been making me feel horrible. I have been feeling anxious, sick to my stomach, crying most of the day. I have been feeling unmotivated to do my college classes or play video games. I have experienced Harm OCD, HOCD, and a couple others but right now its ROCD that has been bothering me. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 6 years now and he is literally the most amazing and loving boyfriend that I could ever ask for and we have no problems in our relationship but I have just been having these thoughts and like "Do I love him?" "Should I break up with him?", "Do I have feelings for him?", Ect and it really bothers me cause there's no reason to break up with him. I keep trying to dissmiss the thoughts or I look for reasurance by looking up ROCD on the internet but I know that it probably makes it worse by doing that. I can't tell him about my ROCD because he's going through his own mental problems right now and also has tons of family stress at home and he's seeing a therapist and I know that If I tell him about these thoughts that it will make him feel confused and insecure and I don't want to risk harming my relationship. My mom is currently trying to find me a therapist that covers our insurance and is affordable for us cause my brother also needs a therapist for OCD. I just think that I really need a therapist right now to help me through my OCD. I have always been so scared to talk to someone about my OCD because I thought that it was crazy but now I realize that so many other people are going through this as well and that I'm not crazy.

Relationship OCD

Just another...

Date posted: 4y

Hello! Welcome to the app I also suffer from ROCD. I 100% understand where you’re coming from and I’ve done my fair share of googling for reassurance. I’ve also been with my partner for 6 years and I share the exact same thoughts as you. I promise you that you aren’t crazy. You will get better :)

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Date posted: 4y

Thank you :) How long have you had OCD?

Just another...

Date posted: 4y

@LeighanneW I don’t exactly know. I feel like I’ve always had anxiety but I feel like I slowly started developing OCD about 5 years ago. I wouldn’t say I was obsessed with these thoughts like I am now but they did come more frequently about 2-3 years ago. I didn’t understand it was OCD until about 4 months ago though when it got so bad that I decided to see a therapist. How about you?

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Date posted: 4y

@One Day at a time I started feeling like I have OCD when I was 12, I'm turing 20 next month. It was bad Harm OCD. I remember one incident when it was so bad that I was running back and forth in my room for like 30 minutes straight touching my standing fan to help the thoughts feel "better" and it made me fall to the floor crying. This month my routine has been more mental than physical, as in I'm doing mental reassurance and stuff instead of doing physical actions to try and make my intrusive thoughts go away.

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Date posted: 4y

Update: My mom just told me that she found a therapist for me and that he seems really nice. My appointment is on Thursday and I'm kinda scared and nervous.

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