It feels like I’m truly gay now and I’ll never be straight again... how do I reverse this, I don’t have anymore anxiety or anything, I don’t even know what I like anymore, all I know is I’ve lost all attraction to girls. This sucks

Thanks, it just doesn’t make any sense it just feel like I completely changed already and I need to come out. Although I’ve liked girls my whole life.

Mate i know how you feel. Its like men have replaced all the women i used to think about 😞

Get into therapy, it's the only way out of it. But you have to commit to it at 100% the be effective. You have to understand that your senses are the only thing you can trust. If you start to picture yourself with a guy just to see IF you would like, it's a compulsion and you're just strengthening your ocd. When you are straight you feel excited, attracted and it's fun to be with a woman. There's no negative emotions toward women and no questioning about it, you just love them and that's it. So if that description doesn't fit with what you feel toward guy, if there's no desire to truly get intimate with a man unlike with women than it's your ocd. You are not your thoughts and intrusives thoughts doesn't have any effect on what you are. Even if therapy may seem like a big step, trust me it's necessary. I have suffered from hocd for 14 years now and even after 2 different ocd diagnosis, it's been effective only with the 3rd therapist because it's there that I fully committed to the therapy and to this day I only regret to not have committed to it sooner. Therapy works it's hard but it's worth it.

@Lazarus85 What kind of therapy did you have mate?

@Ihateocd83 Imaginative Erp

@Lazarus85 Whats that mate ?. Ive struggled with this for 16 years and recently its got really bad like ive turned it horrible 😞

@Ihateocd83 It's a story about your worst fear which " trigger warning for what will follow" for us with hocd my mean writing a same sex story in which you participate. You have to describe different sexual acts in detail along with sensations to finally ending with you loving it all what just happened in your story and you have to read it constantly until the anxiety goes low enough. The goal is to make you realise that even after going into level of anxiety never experienced before along with doubts and everything else nothing has changed once the anxiety get down. It's not a test to check yourself because you are forbidden to reassure yourself while reading your ERP story. The only thing you have to do is read and let the anxiety rise, stay with it and let it go down and all while not judging yourself at all. Here a link about how to do it correctly: https://ocdla.com/imaginal-exposure-ocd-anxiety-4847. Although you can do it with this app on your own, I strongly suggest a therapist to at least help you with the common pitfalls that may come along with practicing ERP.

It should but it depends on the kind of ERP and if it's a imaginary Erp and you don't put enough details in your imaginary Erp story, it won't trigger you. It has to be about the worst case possible scenario for you. This happen when people try ERP on their own, they don't go far enough to reach their core fear, thus it become not effective as it supposed to be.

Ive had cbt and im on medication. Ive learnt some tools to cope but im still struggling i feel like giving up. My mind is adamant i want to be with a man but i dont. I never had 1 gay thought before the age of 22 im 37 now and this shit sucks. I cant even think of women anymore 😥