I’m trying to cope with arousals I had in my past and it’s actually been really hard. I was a little kid who was super fascinated by boobs and would look as pictures and become aroused/masturbate. As the years went on, I began to like boys more and more and never thought much of this. last night some drawing of a topless woman aroused me and brought all this up again. I just feel so sad and helpless considering this feels like real evidence. I’m married and every day I feel like a liar.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I really don’t want to give you reassurance but what makes you physically aroused doesn’t always make you subjectively aroused and vice versa I think it’s called nonconcordance and it happens a lot with women especially. Also every kid is just curious so you should try not to dig in your past and say maybe it means something maybe it doesn’t and try to move on! I know it’s difficult but you can’t let it get to you or the ocd wins!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I don’t want it to win. I just feel like sexual images of women are more arousing vs those of men but I really don’t want to date a woman

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell Yeah I totally feel you but I am just trying to take it one day at a time and accept that thoughts are thoughts and not reality

holley

Date posted: 4y

omg i did the exact same thing as a kid!!

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