Well well well Its been a long time i didnt show a reaction to ocd but today i was watching someone and he talked about how people who are attracted to anime are pedos and in denial. I thought a little about it and tbh i actually had a little attraction to anime waifus who looked like kids... It was pretty scary but i stopped to search about it my old themes were all about something that really didnt make sense but this one is weird because im pretty sure i am attracted too it, i mean half of the people who watches anime have some sorta attraction to characters and anime characters are made to look underage, there is even a genre about "lolis" that is all about underaged and alot of people watch that stuff, even i did sometime ago Im not asking for reassurance, i just want to know if its ocd or not because im pretty sure i have some sorta attraction

Alot of anime characters look underage, the most pop genre in hentai is lolis, thats why i think that way. The most anime characters look like childs. About the groinal responses im pretty sure its not that, i mean i had pocd before and i know whenever i felt attracted to kids it came with alot of anxiety... This comes with anxiety but i had some kinda attraction even before ocd. I even hate it then but the attraction was a real thing. Right now the ocd is "what if im a pedo in real life because i had fantasies with cartoonish characters who are underage"

@icloudyl And its good that you're able to identify the main trigger of your OCD. Personally, I would avoid such content because I think it's only going to make these thoughts and fears worse.

@icloudyl I can't provide you with reassurance because I want you to be able to get better but honesty this sounds like OCD.

@☔gH0St🌂 I will try that too! Maybe avoiding it helps more than accpeting it.. I just want people to accept me, im too worried that the ones i loved leaving me alone when they found out i had attraction to anime character who looked underage.. I think im going to lose everyone...

@☔gH0St🌂 Thanks for not giving reassurance, im gonna try to beat it again<3 Hope its ocd, thank you

@icloudyl I'm sorry you're experiencing this. Does your family/friend group know about your OCD?

@☔gH0St🌂 My family knows but i dont really have any friends... I waste of my times on twitch so i have a connection with people there but im sure they cant accept a pedophile and they dont want someone like me on their community

@icloudyl You're right that they would be uncomfortable with pedophilia, but you really sound like you have OCD. I'm glad you can be open with your family, please don't be afraid to go for them for support.

@☔gH0St🌂 Im not a pedophile and yeah im pretty sure its ocd... I readed alot about it before and i know how ocd works Right now im trying to say fuck it and accept that i can be a pedo but thw only thing stopping me is the communitys i like... I just feel like and unworthy monster who likes children.. I dont want people to look at me like that And thank you for replies ghost <3 by any chance can i have somewhere to talk to you? Like any social media

@icloudyl Unfortunately I'm avoiding social media because all it has done so far is make my OCD 50 times worse! But we can follow each other on here and I can continue to support you through this community. I genuinely want you to feel better.

@☔gH0St🌂 Thanks man <3 i really need someone like you too talk when im not feeling straight

@icloudyl 🌟🌟🌟