NSFW HOCD i check my nails in the way lesbians check their nails, my ring finger is longer than my pointer finger on both hands, i’ve been asked if i’m a lesbian before, i’ve had this theme since I was 12 (i’m now 19), graphic lesbian porn turns me on, i questioned my sexuality 2 times before the hocd at ages 10/11 then forgot about it and went back to liking boys, the hocd started with groinal responses, i have masturbated to a girls body once before, i worried i had a crush on a girl when i was 11 for two days but never again, i’m alt looking, i’m an english major, etc. the list goes on and on. this clearly is not ocd. someone please respond. how can i possibly dispute this evidence?

Right thank you for your comment. I feel like seeking reassurance only gives temporary relief until something else pops up

@Ximena G I totally understand. Our thoughts do not define us! Thinking about something is not the same as wanting or doing it, but OCD makes it feel that way. Truly nothing is wrong with you :) Peace, friend.

this is exactly what my brother said to me before i recovered!

really? what’s your username?

what do you mean it’s distorted by ocd?

@doloresguppies I prefer not to tell it here

@doloresguppies I talked with you, and I know that most of the things you beleive is nor true. They are just thoughts which has been distorted by ocd

@agriculturalindustries that makes a lot of sense, i’m sorry to have asked. but all of these things have happened!

@doloresguppies i may text you

@agriculturalindustries If you want

Seeing this made me worry, if your ring finger is longer than your pointing finger does that actually mean you’re lesbian? Because I did read a article about that and I was just in so much disbelief I have hocd and idk what to think anymore...

@Ximena G I have no idea, I can’t even tell which finger is bigger for me

@wellwellwell This makes no sense, I didn’t want to comment that but I also read that the vast majority of lesbians are left handed and I’m left handed😔

@Ximena G I mean I know a lot of straight left handed women

@wellwellwell I think I just need to stop googling how to know you’re gay I’m starting to obsess over it and then ruminate on my life prior to having these thoughts I feel like I’m just adding fuel to the fire

@Ximena G Also, I looked at the studies and a lot of people have debunked the supposed correlation

@wellwellwell Gotcha it could be a bunch of other things but then again this can be used as reassurance

@Ximena G Yeah I know. I’m just freaking out

@wellwellwell So am I😔

@Ximena G I think the finger thing isn’t real lol

@emma123 no that is 100% not real ahahaha. it’s just something someone made up!!

@emma123 I hope not😅