I’m so scared of myself. Does anyone ever feel like their thoughts are so frequent that it feels like your impulses are real reflections of who you are? I get so nervous every time I drive and go out now, worried that I won’t be able to hold myself back and I’ll snap. I hate these thoughts and feel like I deserve to die. Please tell me I’m not alone. I don’t ever want to hurt anyone.

Hey Tony, I promise you that you aren’t alone in this struggle <3. My current OCD obsession was self-harm, suicide, and harming others. I know that these days are so tough, but hang in there! These thoughts aren’t your own, but rather OCD taking what you hold most precious and twisting those thoughts!

You’re not alone, I recently got diagnosed with this and I couldn’t leave my moms house or be alone cause I feared I would just snap cause of how bad I felt one day. It constantly felt like I had doom following me and it was only a matter of time before it happened. It felt so foreign to me too, my anxiety is usually centered on fear of dying so having those intrusive Thoughts and images and fighting them were so exhausting and then I would feel like giving up and that would start my cycle all over again because if I want t give up does that mean I actually want to die? Are me fears of self harm warranted? Anyways I started seeing and ocd therapist and taking medication because I couldn’t eat or sleep. And without 8 sessions I had such improvement. I started being by myself again, I drove back to my house and left my moms. I stopped looking for reassurance as much. And little by little I got back to things I used to do. There are still days I struggle with the thoughts or have flare ups when things trigger me; like I am now, which is why I’m here. But I do understand you’re feeling alone I feel it too I don’t know anyone who can really relate to this. It’s comforting to me to see your post and all these comments I don’t feel as freakish anymore or like maybe I don’t deserve a good life or am broken beyond repair. It’s tough but with the hard work of ocd therapy it’s so rewarding when you realize you can do the things or go about the day without your Th oughts hijacking your days!

One of my OCD thoughts is that I'm a monster for what I've done, so I sympathize. remember that you reacting like this is good evidence that the violent thoughts are completely false ideas