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- HopeForAnxietyRelief
- Date posted
- 3y ago
- Username
- HopeForAnxietyReliefHopeForAnxie...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I wasn’t diagnosed either but the more I researched the more my thoughts and fears fit into this category. It comes out of nowhere!
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- Faye JuneFaye June
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey! I completely understand what you feel, and know that I empathise with you deeply. I’m here to remind you however, that this is a compulsion. The sexuality quiz was your original compulsion, and then the uncertainty and fear that this caused has led you to seek reassurance - which is completely normal and understandable for someone in the throws of sexual orientation OCD, so please don’t feel guilty or as though you’re ‘bad’ for doing this. Compulsions feel so necessary, but they really do keep you stuck! If you’re not 100% sure of what a compulsion is, it is basically anything that you do that brings instant ease, or has the potential of bringing you instant ease. Giving these up feels so counter-intuitive, you may think ‘well I’m confused and I’m just looking for support’ - this isn’t support! When you feel that urge to react and try and find ease from your obsessions, STOP. Sit in the uncertainty and the fear until it eases. This may take a while and feel literally torturous, but it is gonna benefit you in the long term. I recommend seeing an ERP therapist if you can. If that is not an option, trying the ERP option on this app can be the next best thing. You’re not gonna live with this for long if you make good decisions for yourself, which are gonna feel hard, but you’re stronger than you realise! (ERP will make you feel much worse before it makes you feel better! - but the outcomes are so much better than living with OCD) OCD lies and distorts reality, this is a common symptom of this theme. You’re not alone.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I acted out a scene as a character in this show, and I then found out later the characters gay and I didn’t know it. And now I’m trying not to freak out and I keep getting this feeling in my chest while the fact he’s gay keeps playing in my mind. I wanna freak out so badly. It feels like real attraction and it scares me badly. I don’t want to be gay or bisexual in denial in my life. It was like this rising feeling in my chest and stuff, and it was this sweet feeling. Like it was trying to make me feel like it was good, when it wasn’t. Triggered myself again. FUCK.
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- Faye JuneFaye June
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@notoOCD I understand how you feel, I really do. The fear you must be feeling is off the scale. You’re not doomed to the way you feel, I know you’re probably desperate for reassurance, but it’s not what you need. It’s really, really not. This is scary stuff. What I would advise is that when you feel like this, or something has happened like this, you need to resist the urge to write it down on a public forum and post it. Try and just leave the thought in your head and sit with the uncertainty. It will feel unbearable at first, but once you get the hang of that, you’re already on the track to recovery. Accepting the thoughts is not the same as agreeing!
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Ellie I just can’t get over the rising “good” feeling. Like it was this sensation in my chest or some shit. I’ve been accepting the thoughts and feelings for a couple of days now but this takes the cake. I don’t want to be gay or bisexual at all. I don’t want to be with a man ever. I just want a woman in my life. I always gag and vomit to homosexual thoughts. I’m just so freaked out because of that “good” feeling. I don’t know what the hells going on, but I don’t want to be gay or bisexual at all.
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- Faye JuneFaye June
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@Anonymous I don’t want to give in to your reassurance compulsion, but I feel like you need to hear this. OCD will distort reality in a manner that acts to prove itself, for example - someone has health OCD - they have a fear that they could have a brain tumour - they’re ruminating so often that they start to feel a pain in their head and light headedness. They panic... ‘are my hands numb?’ Etc, etc. Health OCD mirrors sexual orientation OCD in many, many ways. This knowledge isn’t gonna help you, and you’re still going to be crippled by the obsessions and the feelings. Look into ERP, I promise you it is worth it!
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It feels so real and it scares me so much. I acted out a scene as a character in this show, and I then found out later the characters gay and I didn’t know it. And now I’m trying not to freak out and I keep getting this feeling in my chest while the fact he’s gay keeps playing in my mind. I wanna freak out so badly. It feels like real attraction and it scares me badly. I don’t want to be gay or bisexual in denial.
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- HopeForAnxietyReliefHopeForAnxie...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I think you just have to separate the character from yourself. So you’re “acting” that doesn’t define you. The attraction feels so real but it’s not it’s just your mind playing tricks on you because that’s what you fear. Keep being strong!
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@HopeForAnxietyRelief Our HOCD will do everything it can to screw us over. Don’t let the thoughts and the feelings get to you. We’ll both make it.
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- HopeForAnxietyReliefHopeForAnxie...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@notoOCD Thanks for the encouragement! We will make it we just have to fight this. My thoughts all came from HOCD and that’s what we have to keep telling ourselves.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@HopeForAnxietyRelief I hope I have HOCD. I’m not even diagnosed. So that scares me even more.
- Username
- HopeForAnxietyReliefHopeForAnxie...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@notoOCD See comment below
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- Username
- crystalwolf1053
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Does anybody have Sexuality OCD? Because I am pretty sure that I am straight but then suddenly about a week ago I stopped going guys attractive and it really scared me. I was convinced I was gay! I tried to like a girl but my brain was telling me that it was wrong. That was when I thought ‘OMG I DONT HAVE A SEXUALITY’ and I got really scared. Then yesterday I thought a girl was really cute but then saw a guy and thought he was gorgeous! And then I was like no I have to be straight!!!!! What do I do? Does anybody have this problem?
- Username
- Youcanheal
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Relationship OCD
Has anyone ever had an intrusive thought that they have a crush on someone else while they’re in a relationship? I had an intrusive thought about one of my co-workers who is female. I don’t believe I am even gay but for a moment I had a small panic attack that I had a crush on her. I know I love my boyfriend and want to be with him but now I feel like I betrayed him by thinking about someone else like that even though it was an accident. I know I can’t say anything to him about it because I’m pretty sure the crush isn’t real and it would just make things weird between him and I. Anyone have any suggestions or can relate to this?
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- anonymous1963
- Date posted
- 26w ago
Sexual orientation ocd
**TRIGGER: SEXUAL THEMES** Does anyone have any advice or can relate? I’ve suspected that I have ocd for quite some time now, and it’s usually rocd but lately I’ve been getting thoughts that I might be bisexual or even a lesbian, I’ve never gotten these thoughts before and idk if it’s ocd or if I actually feel this way. I’ve always been straight and at one point in high school, I thought that I might be bi but I would never date a woman, it would only be in a sexual sense. (Idk if that even counts as being bisexual honestly). This still stands but I’m having a hard time accepting the sexual part, even tho I don’t think I’m bi. I think this has come up because lately I’ve been loving Chappell Roan’s music, and cuz most of her songs are about women, I think I’m getting intrusive thoughts cuz of that. Also I watched her “my kink is karma” music video and I just really loved the style and a transition in it, and she looked really good like I’m not gonna lie, but idk if it’s me having a “girl crush” as a straight woman or if I’m part gay. The thing is, I don’t think this whole thing would even be a problem if I was single, but I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and a few months now, and I love him to death, and I’m obviously attracted to him (even tho my rocd says otherwise), but I can’t help but feel guilty if I’m bisexual. It’s not even a big deal and I don’t have to make it a big deal, but I get thoughts that if I did like women, I’d have to break up with my boyfriend in order to figure it out, but that’s not what I want (even tho it’s so hard to decipher what I want or not with ocd). Usually when I get these thoughts I can shrug it off and it goes away for a while, but now I’m getting this picture/video in my mind of me giving head but on a vag. I think this started up because ig I wanted my bf to do a certain thing while going down on me and I imagined myself doing it and it got like really vivid and now I get groin responses from it. It’s just really scary right now and I really don’t want it to be true.
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