I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.

This is not too much at all! In fact, I really appreciate the kind and thoughtful comments. I really needed to hear all of this. You have beaten your OCD before? That certainly gives me hope for the future. I am terribly sorry to you had somewhat of a relapse as of recent. Again, I can’t tell you how much this means to me. Yeah, although the thoughts and images seem so real right now, I think it’s because I have been ruminating for a week or two. I couldn’t live with myself if any of it came true. Truthfully, I’d rather die than OCD thought come true. But definitely, I think your words have given me the support I need. I will continue as best I can in hopes of a better day. If I may ask, has your OCD ever made you feel like you might be becoming delusional? Once again, I truly do appreciate it. I wish you the best in your journey with OCD!

@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 OCD has made me feel every single negative emotion there is honestly. Anger, frustration, sadness, all of its there. And yes, I worry about becoming delusional due to the disgusting frequency of the thoughts at times. I tend to doubt who I am as a person and what my values are with the frequency of these thoughts, but I’m doing what I can to try and beat this once again. But regarding your worries about delusions, just remember again you’re not alone, no matter how distant it may seem.

@Tony Thank you so very much! I truly do appreciate it. You have been of a great help. I think you said exactly what I needed to hear. I can resonate so much with all that which you said. In fact, I thought I was getting better and experiencing clarity before I came crashing down. This is the motivational but honest words I think will help me through this. Thank you! If you ever need anything or having a rough time yourself, I’m here for you, too. Best!

Thank you, man! I am hanging in there as best I can. Hopefully some video games might help. I’ve tried writing and talking to others on dating apps all day, which has barely help, if at all. I really appreciate the thoughts and concerns. Wishing you the best with your OCD!

Wow, this is so honest and beautifully put together! Thank you for being kind enough to share all of this with me. It really helps. And I can resonate so much with this, too! I needed this as well. It hurts to go on sometimes, but I am sure it is worth it if I can achieve my dreams, touch the hearts of others, and bring light into this world—it’s all I ever aspired to do in my life. I feel like my OCD stripped me of my confidence and identity, even a sense of joy I once possessed. I lost my faith for a while, but I’ve honestly been praying because of how it’s hard this time is. I agree, treatment does help. Maybe, if god is real, this is what my suffering should be used for, help others in a similar situation. I think I need to learn how to do that a little better from now on. Thank you! I truly do appreciate it. Much love!

@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 I promise it will get better, hang in there earth angel 🤍

I an a recovering alcoholic sober 10yrs with bipolar 2. Anxiety and depression. Just started therapy. Feeling hopeful but afraid to deal with my demons

@Anonymous Hell yeah! Proud of you I look up to people with so much more time than me🤍

@Molly Thank you so much!