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Hey there, I know it may not seem like much coming from a stranger on the internet who knows nothing of your situation, but I hope this at least means something coming from a fellow sufferer. You aren’t alone. You aren’t crazy, you’re just suffering from a glitch in your brain that wants to taunt you into submission. I’ve beaten my OCD once before and am currently experiencing a relapse. I really don’t know how I got through this before, especially on the days where it feels the worst, which probably is where you’re at right now, but I can assure you that it will get better. The fact that you’re still able to recognize the thoughts you’re having are lies means you’re still able to get through this. It’s not going to be easy, and I’m feeling that same issue right now, but I know it can be done. Please don’t give up on yourself. You can do this. You’re not your thoughts, no matter how hard they try to bully you.
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This is not too much at all! In fact, I really appreciate the kind and thoughtful comments. I really needed to hear all of this. You have beaten your OCD before? That certainly gives me hope for the future. I am terribly sorry to you had somewhat of a relapse as of recent. Again, I can’t tell you how much this means to me. Yeah, although the thoughts and images seem so real right now, I think it’s because I have been ruminating for a week or two. I couldn’t live with myself if any of it came true. Truthfully, I’d rather die than OCD thought come true. But definitely, I think your words have given me the support I need. I will continue as best I can in hopes of a better day. If I may ask, has your OCD ever made you feel like you might be becoming delusional? Once again, I truly do appreciate it. I wish you the best in your journey with OCD!
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@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 OCD has made me feel every single negative emotion there is honestly. Anger, frustration, sadness, all of its there. And yes, I worry about becoming delusional due to the disgusting frequency of the thoughts at times. I tend to doubt who I am as a person and what my values are with the frequency of these thoughts, but I’m doing what I can to try and beat this once again. But regarding your worries about delusions, just remember again you’re not alone, no matter how distant it may seem.
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@Tony Thank you so very much! I truly do appreciate it. You have been of a great help. I think you said exactly what I needed to hear. I can resonate so much with all that which you said. In fact, I thought I was getting better and experiencing clarity before I came crashing down. This is the motivational but honest words I think will help me through this. Thank you! If you ever need anything or having a rough time yourself, I’m here for you, too. Best!
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I'm really sorry you are feeling this way. It can be difficult to not have anyone in your life (like family and friends) that understand what it really is like living with OCD. I hope you are doing alright.
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Thank you, man! I am hanging in there as best I can. Hopefully some video games might help. I’ve tried writing and talking to others on dating apps all day, which has barely help, if at all. I really appreciate the thoughts and concerns. Wishing you the best with your OCD!
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I’m a recovering addict,I have ocd, eating disorder, bi polar, anxiety. I used to not understand why god would give me all of that but now I know that all the experience, pain, and struggle I’ve been through is my greatest gift because as I help myself I can help others going through the same and if I can help one life that makes all of the pain worth it. Asking for help reaching out to a professional going to treatment is the best thing I’ve ever done even though it was terrifying. I got my faith and hope back. I take it one day at a time
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Wow, this is so honest and beautifully put together! Thank you for being kind enough to share all of this with me. It really helps. And I can resonate so much with this, too! I needed this as well. It hurts to go on sometimes, but I am sure it is worth it if I can achieve my dreams, touch the hearts of others, and bring light into this world—it’s all I ever aspired to do in my life. I feel like my OCD stripped me of my confidence and identity, even a sense of joy I once possessed. I lost my faith for a while, but I’ve honestly been praying because of how it’s hard this time is. I agree, treatment does help. Maybe, if god is real, this is what my suffering should be used for, help others in a similar situation. I think I need to learn how to do that a little better from now on. Thank you! I truly do appreciate it. Much love!
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@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 I promise it will get better, hang in there earth angel 🤍
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I an a recovering alcoholic sober 10yrs with bipolar 2. Anxiety and depression. Just started therapy. Feeling hopeful but afraid to deal with my demons
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@Anonymous Hell yeah! Proud of you I look up to people with so much more time than me🤍
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@Molly Thank you so much!
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Just know you are loved and important and deserve help🤍
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I’ve been dealing with ocd my whole life, and just got diagnosed about a year ago. I feel my days becoming occupied with thoughts, urges, fears and worry that completely debilitate me. It’s getting to the point where i feel like it’s taking over my life. I don’t see this getting any better, even with the therapy and medication I’m on. I’m scared my life will be like this forever, I’m tired. My brain is tired of ruminating every second of every day from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep. I’m not sure how much longer I can go on like this.
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Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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