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Hey there, I know it may not seem like much coming from a stranger on the internet who knows nothing of your situation, but I hope this at least means something coming from a fellow sufferer. You aren’t alone. You aren’t crazy, you’re just suffering from a glitch in your brain that wants to taunt you into submission. I’ve beaten my OCD once before and am currently experiencing a relapse. I really don’t know how I got through this before, especially on the days where it feels the worst, which probably is where you’re at right now, but I can assure you that it will get better. The fact that you’re still able to recognize the thoughts you’re having are lies means you’re still able to get through this. It’s not going to be easy, and I’m feeling that same issue right now, but I know it can be done. Please don’t give up on yourself. You can do this. You’re not your thoughts, no matter how hard they try to bully you.
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- 4y
This is not too much at all! In fact, I really appreciate the kind and thoughtful comments. I really needed to hear all of this. You have beaten your OCD before? That certainly gives me hope for the future. I am terribly sorry to you had somewhat of a relapse as of recent. Again, I can’t tell you how much this means to me. Yeah, although the thoughts and images seem so real right now, I think it’s because I have been ruminating for a week or two. I couldn’t live with myself if any of it came true. Truthfully, I’d rather die than OCD thought come true. But definitely, I think your words have given me the support I need. I will continue as best I can in hopes of a better day. If I may ask, has your OCD ever made you feel like you might be becoming delusional? Once again, I truly do appreciate it. I wish you the best in your journey with OCD!
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- 4y
@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 OCD has made me feel every single negative emotion there is honestly. Anger, frustration, sadness, all of its there. And yes, I worry about becoming delusional due to the disgusting frequency of the thoughts at times. I tend to doubt who I am as a person and what my values are with the frequency of these thoughts, but I’m doing what I can to try and beat this once again. But regarding your worries about delusions, just remember again you’re not alone, no matter how distant it may seem.
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@Tony Thank you so very much! I truly do appreciate it. You have been of a great help. I think you said exactly what I needed to hear. I can resonate so much with all that which you said. In fact, I thought I was getting better and experiencing clarity before I came crashing down. This is the motivational but honest words I think will help me through this. Thank you! If you ever need anything or having a rough time yourself, I’m here for you, too. Best!
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- 4y
I'm really sorry you are feeling this way. It can be difficult to not have anyone in your life (like family and friends) that understand what it really is like living with OCD. I hope you are doing alright.
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- 4y
Thank you, man! I am hanging in there as best I can. Hopefully some video games might help. I’ve tried writing and talking to others on dating apps all day, which has barely help, if at all. I really appreciate the thoughts and concerns. Wishing you the best with your OCD!
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- 4y
I’m a recovering addict,I have ocd, eating disorder, bi polar, anxiety. I used to not understand why god would give me all of that but now I know that all the experience, pain, and struggle I’ve been through is my greatest gift because as I help myself I can help others going through the same and if I can help one life that makes all of the pain worth it. Asking for help reaching out to a professional going to treatment is the best thing I’ve ever done even though it was terrifying. I got my faith and hope back. I take it one day at a time
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- 4y
Wow, this is so honest and beautifully put together! Thank you for being kind enough to share all of this with me. It really helps. And I can resonate so much with this, too! I needed this as well. It hurts to go on sometimes, but I am sure it is worth it if I can achieve my dreams, touch the hearts of others, and bring light into this world—it’s all I ever aspired to do in my life. I feel like my OCD stripped me of my confidence and identity, even a sense of joy I once possessed. I lost my faith for a while, but I’ve honestly been praying because of how it’s hard this time is. I agree, treatment does help. Maybe, if god is real, this is what my suffering should be used for, help others in a similar situation. I think I need to learn how to do that a little better from now on. Thank you! I truly do appreciate it. Much love!
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- 4y
@Make the most of everyday ✌🏼 I promise it will get better, hang in there earth angel 🤍
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- 4y
I an a recovering alcoholic sober 10yrs with bipolar 2. Anxiety and depression. Just started therapy. Feeling hopeful but afraid to deal with my demons
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@Anonymous Hell yeah! Proud of you I look up to people with so much more time than me🤍
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@Molly Thank you so much!
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Just know you are loved and important and deserve help🤍
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- 25w
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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- 12w
since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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- 12w
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
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