so i guess it’s that obvious to everyone that i’m gay....no one will respond to anything

You need to work on accepting uncertainty and not relying on responses. You are looking for reassurance in our responses and most of us won’t give it to you because we want you to get better. There’s only so much we can say without giving reassurance. Sometimes it’s easier to not respond and let you sit with the uncertainty. Don’t let what you do with not responding to people impact how you view people who don’t respond to you. It’s not in the range of any of our rights to assume anyone is in denial. We wouldn’t want it done to us, so why do it to someone else? We want to help you. It’s just hard to keep responding without reassuring especially considering none of us are in the full mental space for it.

Honestly if I was you i would take a break from the app if your using it as a compulsion. Also I would recommend getting some professional treatment as soon as possible, looking for reassurance is a compulsion and is like lighting a fire, sit with the uncertainty and your anxiety will beging to decrease.

To me, I’ve seen a lot from you in the past hour or so begging for a response, that is an ocd compulsion. I know because I have the same issue. I would google the same question for hours and hours. You feel you need an answer instantly to release some of the anxiety, but truth be told, it will only make it worse and strengthen your obsession at the end of the day. I can tell you to just try to accept the possibility of whatever it is you’re fearing. Sometimes I remind myself it’s ocd. (I’m good at recognizing when I’m having and obsession at this point) if you just try to accept and not react with mcompulsions, eventually the anxiety will simmer down. I promise!! 💕