real event ocd help please
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- 4y
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- 4y
hey♥️. my debilitating onset of ocd started in august and it took away everything from me. i even attempted suicide in october because of how bad it was. and im gonna tell you right now, it is not easy and requires a shitload of patience. but if you want recovery you will get it. i started erp on my own which was very difficult and scary. then around december i started therapy with nocd. and every single day i practiced what i learned in therapy, and what people have advised me to do on this app to the best of my ability. there were definitely ups and downs in recovery: that’s naturally how it works. but today i can tell you that i feel so much better, and the thoughts have decreased to basically whisper level and i see myself leading a productive and happy future. am i completely there yet? no, but i know that ill get there and i know you can too if you want it, and dont give up
real event ocd help pleasereal event o...
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- 4y
thank you. i’m so happy for you
babbiebabbie
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- 4y
I had severe depression and ocd from age 16-25, and was finally able to recover with meds, therapy and a ton of hard work. It’s the biggest accomplishment of my life to date. Now I’m 33, and my ocd is worse than it’s been in a long time. I had a miscarriage over Christmas and in many ways I feel like all the physical and mental wellness I had so carefully built up is shattered on the floor. But. I’m still doing way better than I was at age 20. The difference is, this time I know what recovery looks like. I know this won’t be forever. That’s what recovery does, it gives you the hope and the skills to know you can get up again, even if it’s hard. That’s life-changing. You can do it. Rooting for you.
Amber RAmber R
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I feel this way sometimes too. I just started doing ERP therapy with a therapist here on NOCD. I think it’s really important to remember to take everything one step at a time. When I started I was in your position and some days I still feel that way, but I do have days where I feel better and I hope/feel like that trend can continue. It’s going to be hard but you’ve already handled so much on your own!
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- 4y
you’ve got this!
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