The thing that scares me most is when I’m having a great time playing with my kids and I randomly think about killing them. Not specifics but just the idea. Then I have anxiety for hours about it and scare myself. “What if I did?” “Will my mind ever snap and I do it?” “Am I a danger? Should I leave?” For the longest time I was scared to talk about these thoughts. I’m glad I found a safe space that will truly understand that that is all they are - thoughts. I hope to make new friends so that we can help each other during these “episodes” and bring each other back to “reality”.

Mistypop182 Harm ocd is horrible,I’ve had pure ocd since 13 yr old , I’m now 48 with 2 beautiful daughters and a loving wife . Harm ocd has recently crept in to my life , same kind of thing I’ll be in the kitchen prepping dinner and my oldest will help , like she does , but then the thought creeps in ‘ what if the knife I’m using to cut vegs slipped and I stabbed my baby . It’s fuckin terrible I’ve just told my wife she always knew I had ocd but not that severe . I’ve immediately booked myself to see therapist as I can take those thoughts anymore . Pls pls read Sally Winston’s book , overcoming intrusive and obsessive thoughts , it specifically deals with H OCD . You’re not alone darling these thoughts are not u , you’re a good mother.

Thank you so much!!! I feel so connected with someone now! It’s nice to know you’re not alone - but it’s scary. Same thing - all the time. I just want to enjoy life without obsessing over the thoughts ya know? I see a psych next month - it feels so long away - I’m glad I have this app.

Well I do a lot of counting compulsions to ease my anxiety but that’s the wrong way to go about it . Seeing the therapist soon so they’ll be able to give me the tools to handle this mental illness . But breathe. Count back 10-1 and inhale slowly and exhale and concentrate on your breathing. I’ve started going to a local Buddhist center here in Sarasota to meditate weekly and it helps

When u read Winston’s book they have a good solid CBT process to work with . Let me say this , we are very anxiety prone and with that comes a very sticky mind. When an intrusive thought comes in that frightens/ repulses us We will try to push that out of my mind but unfortunately that’s counterintuitive that’s what makes the thought stick around. So in short I know this is hard to accept right now but u have to let the thoughts flow , notice it and say ok weird but it’s only a thought . It sounds much easier than actually doing it cause who in their right mind what’s to be comfortable with those thoughts but the more we accept the less they stick around .

I hate going on about my suffering but it’s to let u know you’re not alone , these thoughts are a indication that u are very sensitive and in no way would u harm your children.

Share anything it’s good for me aswell to talk .

I hope this helps . There are many more people on this forum with better insight in to this mental illness , maybe they will chime in. Take care ✌️??‍♂️?

It does help and it makes a lot of sense. I am so glad you commented on my post. I will try to remember that.

What do you do to cope with it? I just try to tell myself they are only thoughts and distract myself. I bookmarked the book you mentioned also.

I’ll reply to u when I get home , I’m driving ?