Am I allowed to feel happy when I notice a attractive girl and notice I’m attracted to her as long as I don’t turn it into a compulsion later by reminding myself I’m not gay because I found that girl attractive. And am I allowed to feel happy when I notice that noticing guys isn’t causing me distress or anxiety like it usually does

Thank you!

Can’t stop thinking about my groinal response in the morning today. I don’t think I had an HOCD dream involving a man, so I liked it. But now my HOCD (if this is HOCD) makes me think that I liked my groinal response because I had an HOCD dream. I fucking hate this. I can’t even remember the dream either. Fuck.

@j00_ Whatever it is your feelings are valid - if you try to escape them or run from them they will just persist. Notice them clouds in the sky - present but they dont have to mean something. I know it feels like reassurance will help - it might in the short term - but it wont fix the problem. I believe in you, focus on your breathing - believe me it will pass you can hadle it

@Devangana12 **notice your thoughts as if they were clouds in the sky

@Devangana12 I don’t want to be gay or bisexual at all ffs. I just want to love women for the rest of my life and I want to be with a woman forever.

@j00_ I believe you - but the ocd wont. Its like a toddler, the more you argue with it the more fun it will have. believe me, there was a time before this, there will be a time after it. ERP should help a lot

@Devangana12 I’m just having a bad time. No more Anxiety anymore. It’s just feels so real.

@j00_ I know - you got this!

@j00_ You can do it!

@danny02 I just want a woman so badly. And I keep getting this feeling in my chest and it won’t go away even when I look at women that I like. I wish I had a woman to love, but my HOCD gives me constant intrusive thoughts and shit. I just wish I had a girlfriend. So badly. It’s making me feel like I’m actually gay or bisexual in denial when I don’t want to be. I hope to god I’m straight. Can’t stop thinking about my groinal response in the morning today. I don’t think I had an HOCD dream involving a man, so I liked it. But now my HOCD (if this is HOCD) makes me think that I liked my groinal response because I had an HOCD dream. Even though I don’t think I had an HOCD related dream. I fucking hate this. I can’t even remember the dream either. Fuck. I only want a woman so badly and I don’t want a man at all. I don’t want to be gay or bisexual at all. I fucking hate this shit.

@j00_ Stop trying to figure it out man your doing a compulsion. You can do this

@j00_ Yeah man, I wish I had a girlfriend too. It’s been such a long time and it sure doesn’t seem like it’s getting any closer while I’m going through this. I’ve loved girls since kindergarten, but that’s partially gone, especially in this pandemic because I hardly go out. We’re all going through this bro. I know how you feel and I feel you. Our issue might not be identical but it’s similar, and that’s enough for me to relate to you and everyone battling this.

Yeah, that’s one option, but avoidance is my best one even if it does more harm than good.