I’m scared about something but then idk if this is just normal. I see everything in my life as related / connected to me. So for example, if my home town was on the news or something, I’d feel really proud. Or if someone mentions a show I know or a place I’ve been to, I feel proud and ‘connected to’ or ‘part of’ that thing. And same goes for people. Like if my friend did something awesome I’d feel proud in knowing that I’m her friend. Or if my favourite singer becomes popular, I’ll feel proud in knowing I am ‘a part’ of her. If my family members come across a certain away, I feel like it reflects onto me. Does this make any sense? I’m just scared it’s super vain and egotistical of me to extend myself to all these things when they are their own things without me. Like I’m not that special lol, and I’m scared I think I am. The worst one is when it extends to people because I worry I don’t recognise people as separate living being with thoughts and emotions beyond my needs (which is bullshit and I know that I do, it’s just hard to believe that when I worry that if others judge my friends or family, they will - by extension - judge me). I care for people and don’t want to hurt anyone. But then why do I worry that, if they are judged, then I will be judged? Narcissistic people see others simply as a supply for themselves, and they don’t care. I don’t see people as a supply, but my OCD says I do. I’m so scared of using people. But surely in every relationships, you’re seeking your needs to be met, and that’s not vain? Anyways yeah, the judgement one is definitely what trips me up the most. I know it’s not uncommon when you’re little to be scared that your peers will judge your parents, and then judge you by extension etc. But I hate that I still have this mindset at times as a late teenager. But I’d never tell anyone to change.