Lately I’ve been dealing with severe anxiety. I haven’t had a panic attack in a few days but I feel this fear every day. There’s times in the day where I convince myself I’ll be ok but then it comes back. My boyfriend tells me I keep letting it get to me because I sit there and think about it instead of trying to keep my mind off of it. I feel I have to fight with myself to leave the house. I only leave to go to work and back home or to church. I’ve also been dealing with separation anxiety from my children. I only want to be with them since I find comfort in being with them. I have intrusive thoughts on and off and I try to tell myself that they’re only thoughts since I know better than to act on them. I don’t feel bad about my life. I have a good life so I don’t quite understand why I’m feeling the way that I am? I don’t feel worthless or like I have no point because I have 4 children whom mean the entire world to me so the fear of death has been crippling me. I’m so scared to one day lose it and do something dumb. How can I overcome this? I’ve tried Zoloft and Prozac but they gave me horrible side effects of Insomnia, my pupils were huge like I was on drugs and I felt super antsy all over my body. My psychiatrist prescribed .25mg of Xanax twice a day and she also prescribed Trazadone for sleep. Can anyone please give me some advice? I feel I am causing myself such stress and want reassurance that I’m not suicidal. I’m also always googling symptoms. Just hearing that word brings such fear to me.😭

Harm OCD

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

To get over the OCD of harming my kids was 18 sessions.

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

Are you the same person I’m talking to on the other thread? 😁

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

Same boat as you, except I have not tried SSRIs yet. I had MAJOR harm/self harm OCD. ERP will work. You need to expose yourself to triggers and sit with the anxiety. Super hard. Also, did you stick with the SSRI’s? Folks with OCD tend to need higher doses and longer times to see results

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

I have my first ERP treatment appointment on Friday. I didn’t stick with Zoloft. It made my anxiety worse and I couldn’t sleep. I haven’t had a good night sleep since January 4th. I’m up 2-3 times a night and I just hold on to my children because I have this great fear. I also pray to God. I’m a Christian. My psychiatrist did prescribe Xanax twice a day and Trazadone to sleep at night. I guess it can be used for depression too. Have you taken any meds at all?

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

Nope. My anxiety was soooo bad I’d have a sore jaw, I’m stubborn. Looking back I probably should’ve tried them. Either way the ERP Helped. It’s going to be really really difficult. Face your fears

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

How long ago did you take ERP? If it helped you then I’m glad you don’t need to be on meds. I was 7 years free of meds and would have panic attacks here and there so this whole thing is new to me. 😟

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

I’m trying not to be nervous and just hope that it all works out for the best of my children and I. 💛

MMountains

Date posted: 4y

I think so yes. I need to get my name on here lol

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

Haha! Yes! Just go to settings and go to profile. My name is Liz but my sister used to always call me Lizard. I’m here for whenever you need to talk. 💛

Lizard

Date posted: 4y

How many kids do you have by the way?

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