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I had a therapist years ago who thought I was transgender and tried to get me to accept it. I really thought it out. I like being a boy. I like feminine things sometimes but ultimately I like being a boy. I just had to think it through on my own
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Thanks for the reply. I feel this way too. If I truly ask myself if I want to be a man, my immediate response is always no. But then there's that little voice that opposes that response and it all goes downhill from there.
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@jasminex123 Exactly! That's why it's so frustrating! I honestly think these thoughts were triggered by a series of random transgender themed events in my life that happened all around the same time. It feels like my brain just became hyper fixated on this stuff and now it can't stop.
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@jasminex123 24 turning 25 soon. Never had anything like this happen to me until this last year. Maybe it's all the stress from Covid that has turned my mind into a bit of a hellscape lol.
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@jasminex123 Sorry meant to reply to your post exactly but I just replied to the whole thread. Oops!
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Mmmm not exactly. I've only ever had crushes on boys but in college I kinda knew that I was attracted to women too. But at that time was dating a man so didnt think much of it. I've kinda just been open with myself and now people close to me that I can see myself with a man or woman. Tbh I'm still trying to figure it all out.
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did you ever obsess about your bisexuality? like in an OCD
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@doloresguppies Yes I did for a little bit but I think because I kinda knew for awhile that I was, I didn't fear it like I fear the transgender themes that I now fixate on. I've never questioned my gender before but I've known for a while that I'm not totally straight if that makes sense?
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@kimhope wait, so you had like sexual orientation ocd but then actually turned out bisexual????
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@kimhope sorry, that’s just super triggering
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@doloresguppies Yes I understand that can be triggering but please understand that that's just my personal experience. OCD and its themes are unique to everyone. If you fear being something that is the OCD talking not your inner conscience. If you fear that you might be gay, bi, straight whatever, that is your OCD looking for a theme to obsess on. It's hard to realize that when your mind is telling you different but it's important to remember that a thought is just a thought and OCD will make those thoughts into an inner conflict for no reason.
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@kimhope thank you for your kind response ❤️ i really appreciate it. but kind of like you said, it sort of feels like i “know” that i’m just bisexual in denial.
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@doloresguppies I highly recommend the "Maybe I am, maybe I'm not" mantra. Its helped me with my OCD. Although I still struggle with the intrusive thoughts about gender identity, just taking a breath and sitting with the uncertainty of "maybe, maybe not" has helped me. OCD hates uncertainty, so that's what you have to give it.
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I’m the same except my fear is that I’m gay or bisexual which is this awful paradox because I’m not homophobic at all but I think about me being gay and doing things I never even considered before, all day every day and it’s just torture
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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