I finally found a therapist who understands this and I feel like I should be more relieved. But since our first appointment a few days ago my thoughts have been really bad and convincing and I’m just suffering 24/7 convinced that I’ll never be straight again because of these thoughts

I never imagined it could get this bad in the beginning it was more just annoying but I could more easily disprove the thoughts, so I avoided treatment which was a mistake. Now it’s so bad and I’m so convinced and just paralyzed all the time

@BRoyTheNatural Can you reach out to your therapist to ask their advice?

@NOCD Advocate - Becca Horsfall Maybe we’ve only had the one session so far

This too shall pass

@Anonymous I sure am ready

@BRoyTheNatural I understand the distress behind it . It will be ok . Trust me OCD is vicious and will never stop.

@Anonymous Do u have any advice I can’t go on like this

@BRoyTheNatural It’s been so long since I was me

@BRoyTheNatural Stop checking , also every day for an hour face your Intrusive Thoughts. Let them come to you.

@BRoyTheNatural Also desires feel good they don't feel bad.

@Anonymous I don’t even check voluntarily it’s just automatic whenever I see an attractive guy I freak out and I wish I could only spend an hour but they’re there every second all day

@BRoyTheNatural Yeah so make it a point to do this every morning. Your mind basically needs to check nothing else. It's a way for your mind just to feel certain , that you aren't gay or bisexual. Tell me when these thoughts weren't there you never doubted your sexuality right ?

@Anonymous Right never once

@BRoyTheNatural Exactly. So then just stop checking. Your brain will give you automatic thoughts which may disturb you alot. But just like I said once a day sit with yourself. Call all those thoughts and sit with them .

@BRoyTheNatural No one can tell you otherwise. Always remember

@Anonymous The thoughts are always there so I’m always trying to sit with them but it’s so disturbing I can’t do anything I just wanna be myself again

@BRoyTheNatural I understand but you are making it worse by resisting them. Resistance means more of those thoughts would plague you .

@BRoyTheNatural Understand the root of those thoughts , stop your compulsions and never stop ERP . You may feel good on somedays but don't get too excited continue with ERP , until you know deep down these thoughts won't bother you anymore

@Anonymous I don’t even do that many compulsions anymore which scares me bc I probably don’t even have ocd which would mean I’m just gay or bi. I just struggle with these thoughts/images that don’t even disgust me anymore bc they’ve been normalized. I don’t even t

@BRoyTheNatural * resist them they just make me so agitated and uncomfortable

@BRoyTheNatural When the need to resist comes up breathe through it . Also try throwing yourself in a project which keeps you busy OCD creeps up on empty minds