I had been doing well until today thought it was passing 😥. Someone said it feels like i hate vaginas and i said fuck me too and then they said btw im a girl. Now im freaking out because i thought they was in the same boat as me 😞. God help me 🙏

What I mean by see where it goes is see where life goes. Not your sexuality, as soon as you stop focusing on that a so much life will get better

are you male ? or a gay female

Im a male 😞

You mind tells you you dont like vaginas ?

Yeah I struggle with all this too, why do you think that is? Why do we all have these similar struggles and thoughts? And how developmentkentally did we get here? Just wondering wanting to get different experiences

Have ever heard about asexuality?

Theres a sub type that is known by demisexual (people who has sexual interest with people they are in a relationship)

What does that mean ?

Sometimes i feel attracted to men its like on and off .. my desire for women and attraction has fallen off the planet and i just want it back 😞

I feel you man, I got the exact same feelings. You look at a man then you think “oh that looks good” than you get this feeling of “oh no wait that’s wired and if they knew I was looking at them like that they wouldn’t like it, and I think I could feel sexual towards them and I just feel like maybe I could like it but oh no maybe I couldn’t and wait maybe I’ll just look one more time and see what it’s like, Oh shit I started to feel it again oh no!” Than the loop starts again! And than I personally think “oh no I enjoyed that conversation with a guy more and if I was to hang out with him all day I’d love it more and I enjoy his company more and he’s funnier and I have more in common as far as interests with him.... ok let me just imagine being with him” I’m not out of this loop either my friend but I’m telling you someone else feels like you, and if I find a way out I’ll let you know. But that right there is the problem, “I’ll find a way” “I gotta figure this out” “there’s gotta be a formula” And then when you first start looking that euphoria of temporarily finding your answer gives you peace and a feeling of security than the fear rises again, and than you start to fear the good feelings because the good feelings start to become associated with the mental feeling that you are homosexual and it confuses you again until you don’t want to have any good feelings. Then depression sets in. The main goal buckle up for the ride cause your on it regardless, and see where it goes, cause you don’t get to wind back days or thoughts my friend and try to stay calm.

What do you mean see where it goes ? 😞

Yeah i hope so mate