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SabrinaSabrina
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It sounds like you’re trying to find an answer. The more you try to figure it out, the worse it will get. If you can, try not confessing, try not asking for reassurance and try to stop finding the answer. These are compulsions.
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I know... I told my partner I am gonna start paying for therapy sessions soon. I started crying while hugging him saying I love him so much. I keep telling myself just bc it feels real doesn’t make it real. I started repeating that over and over when I feel off.
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I think I just feel very numb to everything right now. As we speak I am feeling a lot of anxiety.
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My friend says I need to tell him what’s going on but I am too afraid... 😞 what me telling him I feel like I am truly not in love with him or wanna have sex... 😞 then I get thoughts that say you don’t wanna break his heart... I just can’t take it anymore.... 😞 I just want my relationship back... if I truly loved him I would’ve been better by now...
SabrinaSabrina
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I’m sorry you’re anxious. It’s ok that you feel anxiety. I know it can be a scary feeling. Sitting with it is not easy. Be careful not to give yourself reassurance as this can be a compulsion as well.
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😞 ok..
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It’s just... I wake up feeling that way too... I practice breaking up with him to test myself.... I cry bc I know if I broke up I would be with him again... I really do love him more than anyone in my love 😭😭 I don’t wanna end it. I keep telling myself I am sick but why does this feel so different than my first go with anxiety... 😞 I cry bc I don’t want this to be me... I don’t wanna end my relationship...
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I have moments where I know I really love him but they fade so quickly.... my relationship feels like it’s going to die!!... 😭
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How can people say love is a choice!?... when it doesn’t feel like one... I want to love my partner like before! I am so tired of hearing my brain say it’s bc I don’t wanna hurt him or hear it scream at me when I actually know I love him... I don’t even like saying I love you to my family...
SabrinaSabrina
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@Mandy7710 I’m sorry Mandy. Are you seeing a therapist to help with the OCD? I think when you try to reassure yourself that you love him that might be giving the OCD fuel to then tell you that you don’t. I know it’s difficult not to, but interacting with the thoughts by arguing against them or trying to stop them is a compulsion. I’m really sorry you’re in despair. What tools are you using to address the OCD rather than the question of the relationship?
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@Sabrina I don’t know... I am thinking about joining a ocd group. Just trying to find the best one that suits me. It’s hard for me to say that... this is a bad habit I’ve had for 8 years that I never truly learned to break.. I am so afraid to to be honest...
SabrinaSabrina
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Have you tried OCDpeers.com? It looks like they may have a group next week that might be helpful. How about a therapist? Do you have one?
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I don’t have one either..
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