Well I'm afraid to make this post, I've been suffering from what I hope is HOCD for six months now (I'm diagnosed). I've never liked the thoughts or wanted them. I've never been attracted to men or desired to do acts with a man. I've never wanted to be with one romantically or sexually but one thing from my childhood is haunting me. I don't know how to word this or say it. I once experimented by myself with anal play. I didn't like it and thought it felt weird and painful. I never did it again. Even when I did it I wasn't attracted to men or considering if maybe was. Since I never did again it it's safe to say I don't like it now and never have but should I be worried?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I did that i have stuck my finger up there and did not like it one bit .. i worry about that aswel but my mind is telling me i want to be with a man at the moment and it is very worrying and i havent been diagnosed properly 😞

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

I've been obsessing and doing it over and over to see if I like it. It's just unpleasant. I usually deal with that. Can you get diagnosed?

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Terminus it feels good because of the male g spot but I never ever want to do it. I’m disgusted by the thought of me even doing it to myself…now I feel like I can’t stop the idea from happening, that I’d let my gf do this to me. I don’t want to though. Help please.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Ihateocd83 it feels good because of the male g spot but I never ever want to do it. I’m disgusted by the thought of me even doing it to myself…now I feel like I can’t stop the idea from happening, that I’d let my gf do this to me. I don’t want to though. Help please.

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I dont think so im not really sure ? 😕. But the councilar said it sounds like hocd and is quiet common

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

If you can't talk to a specialist that's probably as close to a diagnosis you can get. HOCD is very common

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I have no idea how to get a specialist ? And im shit scared they will go its not ocd 😞

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

That was a bad fear of mine. It should be easy to get one

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

Not in the uk ? 😞

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

Oh I thought you were in the US like most people here

chels225

Date posted: 4y

I’m not able to diagnose, but from all I know I would bet that it is definitely hocd. Experimentation doesn’t have to mean anything I’ve done similar sexual things that would make me worry I was gay. I would try to research erp and see if you can find a therapist for you. If you can’t find one then maybe start with learning what your compulsions are and try to stop them. I was also terrified that erp would mean it wasn’t ocd, but if you don’t do it and stop compulsions the cycle of worry will probably continue. So it’s kind of like the only way out is through the fear. Wishing you a speedy recovery!

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

Hi was you refering to me ?

chels225

Date posted: 4y

@Ihateocd83 I was referring to the original poster, but I feel like this could be applied to a lot of people on this app

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

Thank you a lot. I really appreciate that

NoRuminations

Date posted: 4y

The males G spot is in there anal. There are men who like to do that when they masturbate. There are men who like there girlfriend or wife to do it during sex. There are women who like to do it to there boyfriend or husband. It does not mean ANYTHING.

Terminus

Date posted: 4y

Thank you man

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