So my mom finally listen to me about the whole having-OCD-thing. I tried insinuating I have it by telling her my symptoms in the simplest way possible until she realized it was probably OCD. I lied to her about the kind of thoughts I had because I was so ashamed of them and was on the verge of crying. Then she told me I shouldn't try getting medication for this because she said she didn't "want this to go on my record" and she doesn't want me to go back to the mental hospital even though it could probably really help me, and I enjoyed the stay I had last time. This just kinda frustrates me to be honest, I just want to get help.

hey, i’m really sorry your mom wasn’t as supportive as she could’ve been :( just know that you’ve got a whole community here that cares about you and is here to help! i personally have also had a really hard time talking to my mom about my OCD, and it feels really shameful and almost wrong to talk about. the thing that’s helped me with this is writing down what i want to tell her so that i can explain it better without panicking or having emotions that would normally come from a face to face conversation

If you’re old enough, you should go for it regardless of what she says. This is your brain, your body and if you think medication will benefit you a lot! Do it. If you’re not 18+ to go to the doctor on your own then you should wait until then but ask to speak to someone because therapy will at least help you hang in there. You got this ! Dont ever let someone who cares about what others think, make you feel like that matters more than your mental health

Remind your mom that she is not a licensed psychiatrist and that you’d rather listen to their advice in regards to whether or not you should go on medication. I’m so sorry she’s not taking your symptoms and distress seriously. If she’s at least open to accepting this diagnosis, you could try to find a licensed ocd specialist now who could treat you for ocd with erp therapy. That will be the best treatment for you regardless of what else you do (in patient treatment, medication, etc).