Oh my god... I really feel like I wanna break up with my partner... I am not panicking i know I love him a lot.. oh god... 😞😞

Thank you 😭 I screenshotted this. I just feel guilt... I can’t even do dishes... bc I am so afraid to lose focus.... I wanted to die last night... I had to cuddle with him and it helped me fall asleep...

@Mandy7710 Yes, I too feel guilty. It's like he doesn't deserve to be with me, when he's so good, and I'm so indecisive, unhappy and hard. You can relate. But guilt doesn't improve things. I tried to fight myself. I told myself I hated... me. I asked God 'why?'. But it didn't help. Blaming didn't help. Compassion helps. It's hard. But you deserve love, that's why your man is with you. That is why he loves you. And you can make it. Be nicer to yourself

Thank you for talking with me... in the past I always obsessed but I was able to ignore it... but this feels different.. I’ve always loved making love kissing him hugging him giving head rubs... I miss all that with him... I don’t wanna break up bc I love him so much.. I am all by myself in the house and all I can do is obsess...

@Mandy7710 I feel you. Just don't give up and learn and help yourself, you can do it.

@Daria Alexandrovna I keep testing myself saying I wanna break up to see if I wanna break up and then I freak out so much!... please I am freaking out!!!

@Daria Alexandrovna I keep stress buying.... The things I love about him out way the bad but why... 😭 I don’t wanna get help sometimes bc I feel like it I do then it’s really the relationship... 😞 I wanna love him... I had to take sleeping medicine to help me go back to sleep.... Cuddling with him helped me sleep... out of all my past partners I made a huge connection with my current partner. He has flaws but it didn’t stop me from loving him. I am just so depressed... I remember having so many thoughts about not loving him and feeling off... I just wanna be happy with him again... I get so pissed when I think about him not loving me anymore or another women touching him!! It pisses me off so much!!

@Daria Alexandrovna There were people saying wait 6 months... I obsess about that too... it’s been 8 months... 😭😭

@Mandy7710 Lol no, those are fools. People can have OCD until they cure it. Doesn't go away with time

@Daria Alexandrovna I miss having sex... I just don’t feel like I wanna have sex with him anymore... it hurts bc I love him so much! I Masturbated about my partner. Bc he is still sexually attractive to me. The last time I had sex it started off amazing but then I started feeling off so I avoided sex completely afterwards...

@Mandy7710 Just try it but change the atmosphere a bit wait until you completely relax, ask him to talk to you during the process. Sex can be not as good sometimes. That isn't bad

@Daria Alexandrovna I am so scared I never wanna have sex with him again! 😭 I’ve been crying about it since he left for work at 9am 😭😭 he won’t be home until 5pm

@Mandy7710 Hey, start slowly, with kisses and etc, if you feel like you want him - don't restrain yourself...

@Daria Alexandrovna I still love kissing him. When he gives me hugs I feel so happy. I just can’t stop crying.... 😢

@Mandy7710 You see, the longer yoo too DON'T have sex, the longer you will feel like it's not normal. And he too. You need to accept that sex isn't always as pleasent. Many factors affect it, OCD affects it immensely. Hormones. And generally stress

@Daria Alexandrovna I am just scared... 😞 how do you handle this?...

@Mandy7710 I do it anyway because I know I want him so why hold myself

@Daria Alexandrovna It really feels like I don’t wanna make love to him anymore 😭😭😭 I can’t stop crying...

@Mandy7710 It will get better I know

@Daria Alexandrovna I actually got calm and knew I was in love with him. Then I started thinking too much when I was alone again... the whole friend feeling comes up.... I really think my brain is broken... 😞 I am so afraid to fall asleep...

@Mandy7710 I will the exact same way. Though the doctor told me I don't have OCD. He told me I'm anxious about the things I care about most

@Mandy7710 I'm gonna try some light medication

I’ve been obsessing for so long I can’t tell anymore....

I don’t wanna break up with him but I know I am still in love with him. But I feel like I am lying to him everyday.. I can’t stop crying my eyes out...