That’s it I need to die!!! I feel anxiety!! I don’t wanna break up with my partner!!! But this feeling won’t stop!!! I don’t wanna replace him!!!!! 😭😭 I want my content & comfortable relationship back!!! 😖😖😭😭

I started dating him bc of how funny sweet and caring he is. He’s also very intelligent and talented with art. I just feel so off right now... 😞 I don’t wanna end it... I am so worried bc it’s lack of thoughts... it’s the feelings I am getting that are bothering me...😞 I want to love him like before....

@Mandy7710 Chances are that you so still love him a lot, and these thoughts are just getting in the way of you seein that! I promise you that it will be okay, even though it literally seems like the end of the world! And how great that he seems to be willing to work with you through it!! Not everyone could do that you know? Feeling off is okay! It happens. 💕

@princessem Yeah... I am having a panic attack....

@Mandy7710 How are you feeling now?

@princessem The same...

@Mandy7710 This could take time, but just know that this is normal for us OCD suffering people! Imagine your OCD as someone next who follows you around and constantly tells you annoying things that you know aren’t true, but they keep yelling it to you. You know the truth deep down. But this annoying person keeps trying to tell you otherwise for example! You know your boyfriend is great, has awesome qualities, and that you love him! It just doesn’t feel the same as before because OCD has come in, messed things up in your brain, and now you think you don’t love him as much. You WILL get better control over this. Take it from someone who has grabbed a better hold of my OCD lately after majorly suffering for so long!

@Mandy7710 How are you now??

@princessem I feel like I’m gonna puke and have a heart attack.... I went to sleep for an hour.... 😞 I just wanna love my partner... I wish I got treated sooner maybe I wouldn’t have felt the way I do now....

@princessem I love my partner a lot and I thought love was a choice

@Mandy7710 Our OCD wants to take that choice away from us. If you need someone to talk to, I’m definitely willing to chat outside the app if you could use someone to lean on!

@princessem I would love that.. 😞

@Mandy7710 Do you have any social media or anything?

I can’t.... I am gonna lose my partner!! The feeling I have is too strong! I’ve never had this feeling before! I feel sick touching him which didn’t happen until just yesterday!! please I am so scared I don’t know what to do! I feel so numb right now..

@Mandy7710 can you get professional help ?

@animal35353 No...

@Mandy7710 does your partner know about this ? if so maybe suggest a break from eachother. hopefully that way you’ll realise how much you love them. i’m sorry idk much about ROCD

@animal35353 My partner knows.... I just need to talk to someone... I am so desperate... I can’t take feeling like I really don’t love him! I can’t take this!

@Mandy7710 i reallt wish i could help more. but i don’t know about ROCD. but ik that it’s horrible. if you don’t have reddit i’d recommend that because you could talk to someone that suffers the same as you. all the best.