I can’t stop looking on Reddit or coming on this app or watching videos on ROCD! It’s driving me insane!! I just want this to stop!! I know I love my partner a lot but why can’t things go back to normal!!!! Is it bc I am in denial!?! I know when I say I love you to my partner I mean it... I want my relationship back!!!

Relationship OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

For me, the hardest thing is accepting that I will not always feel the spark. Just because I don't feel a certain way, doesn't mean I don't love my partner. Try to turn off devices to minimize checking and other compulsions. Do not seek reassurance.

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I’m trying my best to sit with it... but it doesn’t feel right... 😞 I started crying earlier asking my partner if he knew I loved him a lot... he says he knows. But it just feels like I am in denial... 😞 maybe I really do wanna break up with my partner even though I know I love him still...

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

That's fine. Now think about those 5 things while doing something you enjoy. Try to breathe deeply and exhale long. There are positives in your life

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I know it's really hard. But a lot of what you're doing is reassurance seeking. Have you talked to your partner about your OCD?

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

He knows....

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I doesn’t feel like ROCD anymore.. this feels too real...

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Maybe talk to him about how to assist in your recovery journey? Like not giving you reassurance. Have him be supportive in a more neutral way.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

OCD wants you to think it's real. When you say "feels" real you are falling into a trap. Trust me, I've been there. Today actually. I was watching a video from NOCD the other night and it was mentioned that when you are scared by a horror movie, it "feels" real but the more you expose yourself it just becomes a feeling.

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

If I was a afraid of breaking up I would cry.... 😞

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I can’t cry.... I meant feel anything... I am going insane... I took a picture of him sleeping... I have a collection of pictures of him on my phone...

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

That seems to be a compulsion. Maybe delete those pictures. Sit with the anxiety you feel after. I also suggest that you start writing out your thoughts in a journal. It has helped me

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I don’t wanna delete them... I wanna hang on to them... 😞 for 8 months I’ve cried and cried.... I want to love him again.... 😞

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Do what you can to beat this. Do pictures represent love. If you don't love him they don't. If you love him they don't. They're just pictures. I know it's hard but you have to make that push to recover

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I know I love him... all day today and yesterday I’ve been really feeling need to break up with him... it hurts... But I can’t cry bc of how numbed out I am... I know I love him he’s my baby. But this won’t stop... I’ve never felt this in my entire relationship with him...... I feel nothing at all....all I want to do is die... this relationship means so much to me and I am gonna lose him....

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I have had periods of numbness. Take it day by day. It might not be completely positive, but you can always break-up later. Try to just stay strong and work on developing coping mechanisms. Also, be patient with yourself. You are strong and you can get through this. Maybe write down 10 things you're grateful for.

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 4y

I don’t want to break up at all.. 1. I am grateful for having a loving partner 2. I am grateful for my cats 3. I am grateful I can vent on here 4. I am grateful I have a great friend 5. I am grateful for having a roof over my head. It’s hard for my to think of anything else..

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